messed up.dunno y.dunno how.show me e way.anyone?

2008-10-15T11:59:00.004+08:00

Helo!

here once again

and gonna promote me and B's blog> fishyprawnie.blogspot.com

do visit it! still figuring out the taggie stuff so leave us a comment instead k!=)

b is complaining so much. HAHHA
cos i constantly change her name.

HAHAH now, from baby to b

(e short form) two to one syllabus

hahahahaha! easier ma!

she's saying that im jus being lazy to call her.

but all e names jus come naturally?

dunno how to explain this..

was talkin to B on phone while she's working

and told her my food crave, randomly..

and she actually bot them all as my dinner!!!

omg.. sweet B!!!

see....

seafood Croissant

prawn takoyaki!

my fav clam chowder!!!

SUSHI!

and! a change of blog song!

fell in love with tis song...

by jason mraz..

Lucky lyrics(feat. Colbie Caillat)

Do you hear me,

I'm talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby

I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea

To an island where we'll meet

You'll hear the music fill the air

I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees

Move so pretty you're all I see

As the world keeps spinning round

You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

enjoy!

b's out for meeting

while im in sch now

i miss b.................

i nid to slp! oh my tians

im damn tired....

and i miss b sooooo much now...

2008-10-04T14:14:00.003+08:00

i wan cookie to stay by my side forever....

jus havin tis random thought.

i know that cookie's lifespan might not be as long as human.

but i really really hope cookie to stay.... with us.. forever and ever...

i love cookie.. =)

shall take more pics and update more often.

2008-10-01T21:33:00.004+08:00

helo ppl!
yummy yummy...
me and baby love to eat these!

makes my day! weee!!!!
i guess me and baby really eat alot!
omfg. baby's makin me turn into some fat ass!

waiting for baby to be home now...
she bot me cheesecake!
weeee!!!......

our first yr tgt is comin soon!!!
omg.. so excited....
*heart skippin damn fast*

AHHAHA...
looking back.. it seems fast huh?!
our first mth tgt feels as thou it was jus ytd?

and i wonder wad baby has got on her mind,again.
she's forever full of weird and awesome surprises!
like, e flowers sent to my place?
e surprise chalet?
e surprise meet up at balcony wit my favorite smellyass?
wooooooo... she's turning me mad!
her love drives me crazy and insane!
HAHAHHA

baby's gonna be back real soon!...........
weee!!!!

it feels safe and warm with u ard.
i was 18 when i got tgt wit u.
and now, im 19..
i learn, grow and change as u watched and walk along wit me.
may e number gets to 20, 21, 22, 23, and on and on..

i love to swim wit baby!
i love to fall aslp in baby's arm!
i love everything of and abt baby!
=)

i miss all my friends and loves!
=(

2008-09-21T14:49:00.002+08:00

its 2.48pm now..
haven had my lunch...
hungry hungry!

i tot of eatin all e heavenly nice food.
i wan sushi......
i wan delifrance....
i wan clam chowder..
i wan secret reciept....

i wanna swim....

i wanna window shop and stop for coffee when im tired...

i wanna baby with me for all tis..
baby's out for work, and im home alone, again.

cup noodles.....
here i come... =(

=(

2008-09-20T19:46:00.002+08:00

yoz! almost been a month since i last blogged!
gg to be 23rd soon! which makes me & baby's 11mth!
which means... we're gg a yr real soon!
well... time flies yeah?

having my second semester of sch now..
pretty fast isnt it?!
change of class for tis time round...
kinda not used to it..
but well....
i guess it takes time...
imiss my previous class!
=)
adapting well to my current life...
everything's well and stable still...
other den me not attending trainins due to time clashes.
well.. shall c how...
perhaps able to work one more day=earn more $
(if i were to stop trainings)..

GPA for last semester was alrite..
out of 4.0, i scored 3.4?
tat makes me feel alittle upset?
hahhaha cos i expected higher!
well... frens all said im too ambitious!
HAHAH but well.... i jus wanted to do EVEN better
and outwin myself in a way...

dun say that im kiasu pls.. hahha
cos im currently starting some studies and reseach for my second yr's topics..
being sports sociology, anatomy and physiology to be e focus...
not being kiasu.. but i jus wanna better prepare myself.
hahaha i wan my name to hit on THAT list!
that academic roll of honour! =)
pls let me be lucky! =)

cant wait!!

went for nite swim at bud's hse last nite
tgt with baby,bud,joey, angel, xx and sharmine
had beer and chips too..
e pool water was like... warm...
so nice pls...
it makes me generated tis idea...
haha... or rather, a dream of mine.
and, i wan tis dream to come true!
how nice it would be...................

what i vision,
what i target,
what i want,
u might not know nor understand.
too ambitious?
i'll achieve them as much as i could.
i dun want e downfall.
i dun want.....
my vision, shall be my achievement
=)

2008-08-23T20:38:00.005+08:00

helo ppl!
im bored!
damn damn bored pls..
i miss gg to sch!
im lovin' every bit of wad im havin currently.

its like, my life's kinda stable?
i got a stable and wonderful course which im enjoyin it so SO SOOO much,
i got a delicated place in SHL Managing Committee.
i got to play rugby(at least in my life)
i got a settled down job(one more comin' up mayb)
i got a comfort room to stay in(with toilet attached)
i got 2cute dogs(cookie& amber=> my sis).. aiya, jus kiddin.

i got great and funni frens ard me
ALSO and of cos,
i got a full time committed and lovable cute babydear!
who's e highlight of my life I wld say?
it feels great, safe, happi or wtv shit when she's ard.
presenting to u... my babydear!...

she's old.... but cute. hahah

*old then rich ma* hahaha KIDDING......

oh ya! today marks our 10th mth tgt!
so fast! hahaha gonna be a yr soon!

HAPPY 10th mth baby! =)
u've been great..=)

well... i wonder if any of my 'old' frens r still catching up wit my blog? heh.

anw, i had tis adventure learnin session dat day. high element stunts=)

cheers all! =)

2008-08-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

alrite... here i am again.
back once again.
omg.. my health has been, bad bad bad!

well... dat might be one of the reason of mine in giving up rugby.
=(

i dunno.. im caught in between.

well, dat aside,..
met up wit butt, jo, jo's fren, jon, shiping, lynn few days back.
wooo.. its been long since we last met..
still got alot ppl....... whom i wanan meet...
=0

ok,.. im getting kinda random here..
shall 'randomize' on den....

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoguyslikeaboutyouquiz/">What Do Guys Like About You?

and here...
smth funni... hahah
i dunno if its true?
heh. just, did it for fun..

You Are Bisexual

Girls or guys? You'll take either. Or both.
You can't make up your mind. And why should you?

What's" Your Sexual Orientation?

so boring...
and im waiting for baby to be home.
she's getting me dinner..
she takes ages to knock off.
either tat, or its jus prolly cos im feelin bored to
be alone at hm e whole day..

'we're getting more attached to each other as e day goes by.'
yes baby, u're rite i think.

2008-07-30T21:45:00.002+08:00

SO! its been hell long since i last blogged!
phew.. so many things happened...
here, there, here, there...

and the latest news for now...
im sick!
yes, fallen sick, again.

ytd went to see doc aft taking test.
fever! 39.3!
plus doc soh say my airway no good leh.
and med's damn ex. 50 BUCKS pls!
and i've to go back for review 5days ltr
and buy more antibiotic.
cos been coughing for weeks...

thanks baby for taking care of me.
fetching me water,
giving me tissues when i vomitted,
bringing me to doc,
reminding me to take med,
buying food for me,
using ice and towel to cool my bodytemperature down.
xie xie baby for everything.....

and guess wad, now baby's sick! =(
ohh man...
and we now jus gotta take care of each other.
hahah. wad a tough job.
the sick taking care of the sick?
crazy.

i guess, me and baby got to be away from each other for some days.
i dun wan tat! =(

baby, no matter wad, ur health shld come first k?
take care of urself....

u lost faith in the word 'forever'...
i shall be e one makin u believe in that word, again.

2008-07-18T17:24:00.004+08:00

all!!! i've posted pics and all abt my bdae on me and baby's blog!!

go see go see!

cheers.

thanks all classmates for e cake and NUM rugby top.

thanks all SHL for e cake and celebration.

2008-07-07T13:15:00.002+08:00

hi all!
me and my babydear had came up wit a blog tgt
feel free to visit it alrite.
jus started thou,
so yup, will try to update as frequent as we can

www.fishyprawnie.blogspot.com

and i'll blog abt my bdae soon k!?
once all pics are bein uploaded.

2008-06-27T15:41:00.006+08:00

i got a nice nice babydear.

a babydear who is there for me when i needed someone.

a babydear who wakes me up every morning.

a babydear who on the water heater for me b4 i shower.

a babydear who fetches the towel for me.

a babydear who packs my bag daily b4 my sch.

a babydear who packs my trainning gears and boots.

a babydear who buys breakfast for me to bring to sch.

a babydear who picks me up after work.

a babydear who washes+hang my clothes.

a babydear who splurge on me.

a babydear who digs my dirty ears whenever i ask for it.

a babydear who massages my stiff shoulders no matter how tired she is.

a babydear who stand-by me.

a babydear who let me lean and cry on.

my babydear's awesome.

awesomely awesome.

presenting snap-shots of baby!=)

u've nvr lack in giving me anything.

BUT

there's jus things which me myself cant figure things out..

过去的种种在心里滚成雪球

怕还没说话泪就会先流

爱不是他给得不多

是不知道我要什么

ilovebaby.

2008-06-19T11:55:00.003+08:00

here u go,.. some of dear's bdae party's pics..

lazy to post all... go to her blog if u wanna see all them!

hahaha....

wit a strawberry short cake from bakersinn

was telling her smth.. not kiss LA. *dumb*

*hee! baby always put her hand round my waist, this way;
and i always put my hand on her chest, this way* HAHAHHA

rugby day camp! = FUN!

RUGBY's my life!! go ruggers! =)

i know my words and actions do hurt u at times.

i dun mean them. u shld know me, know my pattern.

i cant seems to find the rite words.

same as wad u've said;

i love u baby, always

2008-06-17T12:59:00.002+08:00

i jus read my sis' blog. heh.
imiss her somehow.
she puts up in her blog abt how much she loved cookie.
and, how much she loves mummytan and her idiotic sista>which is me!
hahaha i almost teared...
as i got myself reminded of e past.
how much love and laughter my family had.
which will nvr be found, ever again.

it was Fathers' Day on sun,
i texted daddy to wish him.
i dunno if he had recieved it..

im missing my family, right now.
and my dogdog. she's dumbie cute!
with some element of silliness.
HAHAHA.

got tis urge to rush home, right now.
but den again, who's home other den cookie?

im missing my chouchou baby too....
evey hug, and touch, melts my heart.
u make me weak effortlessly.

we've reached tis far...
jus hope things will be as we wanted.
=)

2008-06-16T18:28:00.003+08:00

BOO!!! HI ALL!!!

welcome myself back!

hahha i've not been updating my blog!

oh god... well... due to many several reasons la huh.

phewww... jus finished up all my stuff.

finally having the chance to sit down and slack

and blog!

hahaha my first time here in SHL club room.

such a wonderful place!

got hot pink sofa!

L-shaped sofa too! and comfortable arm chair style kinda seats.

can jus slp here man.

got the urge to lie down and slp!

hahahah

tao bao-ed some food up with quanlong.

and me and quan ate here! *when we're not supposed to!

oh man. wad a president and a treasurer of the club HUH!

hahahahhahah!

oh i got tonnes of stories to tell.

too lost as to where to start thou. hahah

mayb jus some pics......

my lovely teammates!

and here... my new rugby boots!

dear bot it for me! and surprised me with it b4 my first darn ever match.

xie xie dear!=)

ohh talking abt dear, we jus had a nice celebration durin her bdae!

which was held at eve bar.

so many peeps la!

it was like some lesbian party there.

HAAHHAHA! =)

pics will be all up onces uploaded!

went down with dear to meet her colleagues for some drinkin session

for celebration of few's last day workin at vivo.

didnt feel good.

partly cos i wasnt really well-entertained?

partyly cos i cant clique with those ppl at all?

they looked somewhat silly to me.

edmund wasnt there,.. so yeah...

usually edmund and me will clique-clique there.

we would talk and bitch abt our JC's fun life and anything elses under e sun!

ytd was jus,,, watchin mtvs and listening to songs while dear was busy drinking.

awwww. awful feeling.

i nvr felt such neglected in big crowd.

well... im too used to the 'limelight' style? MUHAHAHAHAH!

awwww.... i miss smellyass and co.

she seems fully booked.

anw, hope to meet up and jus luff and bitch ard.

talkin abt bitching,

my team's really bitchy!

hahah shld see our daycamp's pics.

tat two days were madness.

all the bitches! ahhahaha

i had loads of fun then.

2008-05-17T16:46:00.002+08:00

hi ALL!=)
im so bored!
i jus read JJ's blog.
and he's complaining real mad like he's BORED too!
omfg. im realli bored!

dear has to work on weekends.
argh. thus, im home alone for nw.
and, i tried to make my own lunch jus nw.
it was nicely done!
but it tasted horrible! awful! PHUI!
and, i threw it away.

dear jus called and i told her smth...
that, i felt as thou im single and avaliable
HAHHAHAHA!
chatting onlin wit ppl suddenly feels great.
well.. with someone leaving me dare not reply his textes on weekends.
wtv timin' u reply, he always got his qns.
>wanna go out?
>wanna go for movie tgt?
>wanna have dinner tgt?
>wanna go supper or drinking tgt?

for once, im caught speechless.

imissmydearsososososomuch!
she'll be home soon soon soon!=)

2008-05-13T11:58:00.004+08:00

im here to blog! again!
hee! mad me.

tat crispy prawn send me tis song which i tink its hell nice!
xiao yu- zhong yu shou chu kuo.
well.. its a sad song, those kena ditch song.
but apparently, i cant relate myself to e song, somehow or so.
but, i particularlly loved tis part of e song,.
which somehow, somewhat i can kinda relate myself to..

我终于也说出口
其实很爱你
但从没认真说过
或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由

nice song i think.
all shld go listen!
hahah

here. the pen which dear bot for me.
cos tat time i was amazed by how it works.
ok,.. retarded me... XIE XIE dear!

and here... my AI XIN breakfast from dear.
its yummy! I finished all! it was 2 big pieces in total!
XIE XIE dear!!! for wakin up early to prepare,
on e water heater and pulling me up from bed.
*which is real a tough job cos im such a pigg..*tired ma*

oh! dear bot me a nike sports bra too!
hmm.. its purple-ish pink?
i dunno?
hahaha. silly dear buy and do so many things.

didnt turn up for trainin ytd.
well... but i had a nice day ytd...

i wanna watch movie!
placed first on the e list shld be...
MADE OF HONOR!

heeeee....weeee......

im so looking for e day where dear off,
and where i got no sch, no work, no trainin, no meetin..

i miss those days,..
my 'tai-tai' days which dear named it.
cos i slept till hell late,
den go out shop,eat, drink,play or wadever so.
like, so nice! so slack! so slow-paced!
where there's no tire-ness, no worries, nth...
jus dear, frens, social.... so wonderful.
and yes, i admit tat i realli put on alot of weight tat time.

2008-05-12T22:19:00.004+08:00

rugby gals....

w15Q gals...

boo all!

guess wad?!
IM BLOGGIN HERE AT EVE BAR!!!

dear waited for me to end sch today.
cos she off!
so sorry to keep her waiting due to e draggy interview.
dear cut her hair! hee!
here...
her new hair style!
my shuai dear!

i've been a real busy gal i think.
almost all the mon occupied.
either pei dear or attending meeting of the SHL commitee members.
and other weekdays attending trainings and work.
im beat!
weekends being e days where i can realli get some rest
and get my long long long sleep.
every sat and sun hoping so much to hug dear and slp longer.
but no choice, dear got to work. =(

upcoming shld be a camp and den a project?

perhaps having a rubgy camp too...
omgomgomg.....

im lovin' everything tat i haf for nw!
other den the fact tat i gotta mocve out soon..
i wana still stay wit dear thou.
but dunno how...
wanna work and find a way out.

wanna let u know tat, no matter wad,
i'll still be here for u still, and always.
nth's gonna change tis fact.
stay strong and positive is all u nid to do.
no matter wad, i hope i'll be able to be ur pillar of strength.
nvr gonna change so long u dun give up on urself.
=iloveu=

2008-05-09T11:08:00.009+08:00

HERE!!!! some of the sentosa outing pics

us!playing rugby!

we covered JJ with sand!

can see wad words?

my bestie darling and me!=)

wohooooo....

been kinda busy lately.

trainings been damn fun!

im lovin' rugby more and more!

looking forward in playin contact rugby thou!

teammates been great! all the crazy fun bitches.

bitches, inclusive of those bungs.

they're bitching-ly bitchy too!=)
met up with teammates durin break time and celebrated Amanda's bdae.

oh gosh. thou meeting time was short, it was fun!

we did those rugby stacko stunts on her!

push her into the toilet and jus PLAY PLAY.

hahaha when we came out her classmates were like;

'eh? done raping her hah?'

omg hell god. freakingly funni ass.
took a few pics as well. pics will be posted once uploaded.=)

ohh.. not forgetting smth which will be smth of highlight in my life soon.

IM IN!!!!!!

hahah currently am one of the committee members for the SHL.

organising, running and accepting events in sch of health and leisure.

looking forward into working with the rest of the CM.

roughly ard 10 of us, peeps from yr1 to 3. mix mix.

hee! and e best part is!

we will have priority in attending activities like the seagames and stuff!

omggg.... i cant wait, to be honest.

meeting dear for dinner always aft my trainings

and always made her got to wait for me.

so sorry my dear...

also! wanan XIE XIE dear for picking me up from work always!

its like a without fail thingy la.

*huggs* =))

met up with clique last nite(sat nite)

went eve bar to celebrate jon's bdae.

we had martell, beer and tequila pops.

wohooo.... wad shit.

played and played... fun.

we gave jon a formal top, a cake and each a kiss as present.

HAHAHA!!!

nice meeting up aft so long.

esp mich! i hell long didnt see her alr lo.

tat yuzhen! hahahaha!=)

and i miss my JC frens!!!

smellyass and co! oh god.

i miss assembly time.

i wanna slp on dear's strong arm everynite!

a fact which will nvr change.

im falling deeper into u every other day!

omg. shit me.

as i fall deeper;

i get more paraniod,

i get more insecure,

i get more demanding,

i get more fears,

i cant explain wad im havin' towards u.

jus wanna retain this feeling, chemistry or wtc u name it.

2008-05-05T19:06:00.004+08:00

the perfume i gave dear for our half yr

the ring tat dear gave me

its from couple lab

the new phone dear bot for me!
XIE XIE DEAR!=))

and a hand-made card from dear.=)

sentosa on sat with classmates.
pics will be posted soon.
=)

me and dear had been real close recently.
gg railway mall for dinner ltr.
oh we went there ytd too!
hahah

been a real happy gal!=)

2008-04-24T12:26:00.002+08:00

Woooo!!! been laggin in blogging!
HAHAHA. lazy? busy?
hahah both...

and here's the happening in my life.
went rugby trial on tues.
i really really cross my fingers man.
hope can stand chance.
know y?? cos there're so many experienced players there.
also, there're seriously alot f*cking fit gals there.
well... mayb i might jus join contact rugby instead of touch rugby.
shall see how thing goes ltr on...
gotta go for training ltr aft sch.
but my legs damn suan la.
got muscles aches!
omg nid wheelchair.
ltr i sure JIALAT!

worked ytd nite...
first time working with susan.
hmm... she also abit blurblur
den we both jus blur blur tgt.
able to get by thou.
hee.
=)

training ltr aft sch,
working tmr aft sch.
omgomgomg.
im so looking forward to weekends!
i nid slp rather badly!

HAPPY HALF YR TO DEAR!
think we've been thru real loads.
looking forward for more upcomings..
from e insecurity, to poking ur ear(gg NUH), to our homely chicken pox, to all e 'intruders', to all e little little disputes, etc and etc...
we'll make everday feels like e 23th yea?

lastly, thanks dear for e ring...
and i hope u'll like e 'UNFORGIVABLE' men's perfume.
i know its smth u've been eyeing on.
=))

u're making me not feel like waking up daily cos of ur lovin' warmth-filled tight hug.
u're making me fall deeper into u with every sincere move and kiss.
u're making me melt and weak; still, aft so long.
u're every word, every gesture, every care& concern,
omg, making me relyin on u so so so so much!
=)
wonder if its gd or bad thou.
hehee!!

missing u always thou u're beside me everynite.

2008-04-15T12:51:00.002+08:00

sucks.
i got B for ytd's class.
i knew it. that my grp screwed up the presentation.
B's nt enuff for me.
but well... jus got to try harder.
i think sometimes, luck plays a role.
if only u team wit the harkworkin ppl.
if only u team wit the logical thinkers.
if only...

hon always used to tell me tis...
e other side of e grass is always greener.
when u're attached, u yearn to be single.
when u're single u yearn to be attached.
tell me about the caught-in-between feelin?

is my pride level seriously too high?
is my mood-swing getting out of hand?
is my eagerness in getting the right principles too much?
is my curiosity and playful-ness killing?
am i hurting my loved ones?
i dunno. tell me....
what can i do?
cry for u for who i am?

Artist:
Nick Carter
Album:
Now or Never
Title:
Do I Have To Cry For You

Don't want to close the door
Don't want to give up on it
Don't want to fight no more
We'll find a way around it
Where's the love we had?
We can make it last
Tell me what I gotta be
Tell me what you wanna do?
Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me
You know we can't go on,
living like we do
Do I have to cry for you
Do I have to cry for you?

So tell me what it's for
If there's no winner in it
Nobody's keeping score
Let's start from the beginning
Can we make it last?
With the love we have
Tell me what I gotta be?
Tell me what you wanna do?
Cause I can't live my life
the way you want me to
You know I can't go on,
living like we do?
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I gotta stand in the cold dark night
till the morning light, yeah
Do I have to say
'I won't let you ! get away'
What do I gotta be?
Tell me what wanna do?
I can't live my life,
the way you want me to
You know I can't go on,
living like we do?
Do I have to cry for you?
Yeahh, yeeaaahhhh
You know I can't go on,
living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

new blog song....

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not'
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

i felt smth real bad jus now.
was sitting in class during my break time.
and i sneezed.
felt a damn sharp,piercing and draggy pain on my lower back.
somewhere at my spine?
i dunno exactly where thou..
dunno what exaxtly happened.
but these days been experiencing backaches.
.....

seriously dont know how to make things better for u

2008-04-14T12:43:00.003+08:00

boo! sch been great!
rp's daily grading...
and here's my grades for first 4days.
mon-A
tues-A
wed-A
thurs-B (saddening!)
fri-- not out yet.

hahaha slow pokpok facil.
hopefully, a gd cca on e way?

nth much elses to blog alr.
hmmm...classmates been gd.
impressive bunch we are.

hmmmm... drinking drinking and drinking.
cool.
madness.
SOT.
loco.
u name it i haf it.

though my new way of life is kinda tiring nw,
but, feels gd i think.'
i kinda enjoy it.
hmm think i mid slp early every mon and wed nite?
cos got work aft sch on tues and thurs.
always v sleepy den stone stone.

roars.
today damn hell no mood.
super tired.
didnt contribute much.
onli tok cork wit frens and etc.
i nid to slp badly!!!
*yawns*

i miss all my frens!
i miss jc life, still!
but im enjoying great here too!
=)

getting more and more ambitious as e clock ticks.

how much u know me?
how much i know u?
how much we know each other?
questionable isnt it?

2008-04-06T19:00:00.003+08:00

tmr's gonna be my first day of sch.
scareeeeeeeee.......
hope everything runs well!
esp in terms of IT.
i suck at using techonology.
specifically, computers.
roars.

clubbed last nite at st.james wit dear and co.
hmmm it was alrite...
well,. same old stuff happened..
dear was unhappy...
mayb i shld realli avoid clubbing wit dear?

cabbed home and reached ard 5plus.
was so hell damn tired pls!
totally cmi.
and... i've got body aches all over.
my back is damn suan!
omg... old alr.
hahaahah!

just being myself and get u hurt?

i dunno how to go about doing it.
maybe, just dont be myself?
dont be e spontaneous me?

u said,
'just because u're young,
and given no choice i had to take all these shits.'
i dunno wad i could do to make things better off.
perhaps...to make u trust and have more faith in me,
are things i could do.

time's gonna be a problem for us.
cos, u're gonna end work late.
i gotta understand that...
i gotta accept that...

just hope that things will not distant.
that, things will not fade.
that, things will not die off.
that, things will still be as great as what we are now and before.

u hugged me from behind last night,
and held my hands tightly.
leaning ur body close to mine.
feeling ur warmth, love and everything elses;
i asked u,
'will u still hold me like this tmr?'

=iloveu=

2008-04-04T17:54:00.003+08:00

HELOO!!!!!!!!

seems tat my blog has kinda went for a short "vacation" eh?

hahah

sch's gonna start on mon!!

wohoo.. im alittle anxious.

anxiety plus anticipation.

hope things will run well for me!

=))

work has been great so far.

jus got my 2 sets of pay.

and i've banked them in.

hahaha used only a small small portion.

i gotta save up for my fees debt and rainy days!

hahah.

working at e clinic seems alittle stressful at times.

e fear in me always in getting e wrong med.

a life's at stake mind u!

well... picking things up well..

great colleages who guided and taught me alot of tings.

thanks so much to eryi as well.

hhahah! she's like some 'floor manager" there.

hahahahaa. their guidances, much appreciated.

here's gonna be some of my daily routine in a few days' time.

sch, from 9 to 430.

cca on 2 of e weekdays' nite(provided i get selected)

working on 2 of e weekdays' nite(workin at clinic)

hmmm...

think i wanna find another part time job on sat and sun!

hahahh dun wanna waste away my time.

any lobang tell me k!
hahaha! xie xie! =))

caught 2 movies.

step up2, again..

pei dear watch...

had sushi for dinner den movie.

at cine.

e other day...

watched Becoming Jane.

oh god!

pls all of u! dun ever watch tat show!!

its hell BORING!

it kinda has some literature element in it.

well... i was telling dear tat i shld buy dvd of tat show.
so tat when i suffer from insomia, i shall jus watch tat and doze off.

and! dear bot me chocs!

my favorite aftereight!

XIE XIE DEAR!

couldnt bear to eat it....

life's been stable and 'Systematic'.

gd and bad in some ways...

i've slowly gained back e drive in me.

e motivation and etc in everything tat i do.

i'm prepared to give up anything or anyone,

jus for my studies.

if it comes clashing in my way,

im sorry but to give thing(s) up.

studies gonna be my priority.

for e sake of my dream and passion,

i shall press and push on!

ROARS!

sincerely,

xie xie godma for all her help.

it takes both hand to clap.

giving in to gain smth for our r/s.

2008-03-24T19:42:00.008+08:00

realised tat i haven been toking to my beloved kuku fling on phone.

no choice man. recently been working.

flingfling!

i miss ya!

pls take care.

and i haven meet my dearie buttbutt for long.

pls take gd care of urself while working!

goodness...

pls watch and careful!

ohh dear...

u jus told me abt ur deep deep cut.

oh myy..

was flipping thru some photo albums.

kinda miss e times when i was young..

and, i think my daddykee used to be handsome!

(look abit like QI YI WU??)

(sorry to make u tilt ur head!)

(can spot me?!)

( me and my er jie)

hope u see i post tis u won kill me!

HAHAH!

think i look damn TU.

and, SHORT.

daddykee bot me breakfast cum lunch.

didnt get to see him today as i was slping still.

dunno wad im feeling.

......complexity.

2008-03-23T18:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 5th month my DEAR!

v fast.. *blinkblink* 5months alr.

next month gonna be half a yr alr.

looking forward, to every 23rd, still.

heeee.

jus tot tis song wld be someting suitable,

and nice...

Written by kenny g, babyface, walter afanasieff (1996)Performed by kenny g with toni braxton

THAT SOMEBODY WAS YOU

There's been so many times
My heart has been broke in two

I kept on waiting in line'cause nobody's heart was true

For every time i gave into love

I was always in the blue

And just when i was 'bout to give up

I found myself an angel called you

I've been waiting a lifetime for somebody

To love me like you doOh yeah (oh yeah)

I was thinking that i'd always be lonely

But god came up with someone like you

Just to think i had made up my mind

Love was over

Somebody gave me the love

That somebody was you

I tell you night after night

I prayed for someone like you

But no one ever was right

They could not compare to you

I wasn't sure if i could endure

If things just stay the same
I didn't know if god had in store

A day without your lovin' my way

I've been waiting a lifetime for somebody

To love me like you doOh yeah (oh yeah)

I was thinking that i'd always be lonely

But god came up with someone like you

Just to think i had made up my mind

Love was over

Somebody gave me the love

That somebody was you

Only you

That somebody was you

Only you

That somebody was you

Only you, only you
That somebody was you

That somebody was you

well.. i'll try to find tis song
and put as my blog song.couldnt find it at e moment.

u're special, ever and ever.

2008-03-21T17:41:00.002+08:00

woooo!!!
meeting up session wit smellyass,
karen, xt and vanessa last nite was great!
we luffed alot....

pics will be posted aft i've get them uploaded.

played five-ten.
and i think im hell sway.
kept losing,.
had redwine and beer..
like, crazy.
cos by right, cannot mix.
as e effect wld be adverse.but well,...
done and over still.

eve bar changed their seats.
dun realli like.
nt as cosy.
but its gd as more peeps can share a table.

me and dear realised smth.
which is tat,
cookie loves to rest or slp in between us.
dun believe?
see....
all e evidences here...

stained.
with,
ur smell.

was it e addiction that brought abt e affection?
or e other way?,
affection that brought abt e addiction?

no matter what it is,
u're both my addiction,
and affection,
still.

2008-03-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎

短讯声在响凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里更孤单
一句睡了吗像你的习惯
这夜晚为你而混乱

因为对你
我连再见都说不出口
.......

tis song by li jiu zhe hell nice i think.

这夜晚为你而混乱
.for years.

meeting smellyass and co tmr.
i MISS them!!!
smellyass esp!
hahahahha
but its nice.,
cos we've been close in contact still.
msging u has become my daily routine!
HAHAHHAH=)
love love!

i love ur companion.
feels gd wit u ard...

2008-03-17T00:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BDAE TO MY GODSIS!
here's alittle present for u!
(when we were in pri one!)

lets get alittle cheena here...

not too sure if i use e correct words,

cos being luffed at wq party today for using wrong chim chi words.

nb.

but in any case,

these are words from e bottom of my heart.

看到你受尽委屈的脸,

我心疼的眼泪在落.

when u wipe off my uncontrollable dropping tears,

i cant help it but to feel sorry.

that i couldnt understand and give u what u want.

that i always want things to be done and going my way.

that for such a long time and im still tryin to adapt;

to ur sensitivity, to ur needs in terms of attention and etc.

im trying.

perhaps accomodation is what we needed.

2008-03-15T02:13:00.002+08:00

i waved goodbye to u.
i almost dropped e tear rolling in my eyes.
u spoke to me alittle.
i answered alittle.
i felt stranger, yet not.
and when u stepped out of e hse,
i realised smth,..
i love daddy, still.

on and off.
always.
always.
always.
is e problem wit u?
or me?
mayb. perhaps.
i always feel tat u're unhappy being with me.
i cant do much, or rather, more like i dunno how to.

i wonder.
i really wonder.
perhaps, we needed time, to think.

2008-03-14T01:35:00.003+08:00

boo!!!

im really really really bloggin daily!

ahhhahah!=)

feel damn hell gd and relax nw..

e v lightened up feeling...

think cos me and dear had achieved smth GREAT today!

which is, i finally,.. FINALLY.. packed my room!

nw its damn clean and neat!

and my pile of stuff in e living room too!

we threw away tonnes of notes.

wtv. jus throw.

hahah but i kept all e books jus in case.

feels great!

we showered aft tat den shared a tom yam cup noodles.

HAHAHAH!!!=)

gg rp to settle all stuff tmr.

and configurate my lappy.

mummytan, godma and dear will be accpmying me.

XIE XIE!!!=)

got to work aft tat. sian.

dear will be wait for me to end work. yip!

presenting to u my dear and cookie!

only if, only if, only if,

if we stay this sweet always....

if we stay this intimate always...

when u're close, i go all weak.

all e tears,...

want them, no more.

2008-03-13T01:08:00.003+08:00

heloo!!!
see?! im now realli an active blogger!!!
*proud*
hahah!

im gonna be like my sweetie smellyass!
she blogs alomost daily!
ehh im gonna COPY u!
hahahahh!!!=)

nth much for today...
had kfc for dinner.
so sinful LA!

how to work things out when all's tough?
how do tings work?
when one is sensitive while e other is insensitive?
how do tings work?
when one is serious always while e other is non-chalent?
how do tings work?
when one is demanding for something while e other dunno how to give?

its not i dun wan,
i jus dunno what or how, at times.

'instead of telling one what not to do,
tell one what to do.'
this holds... isnt it?

"Love the heart which hurt you,
but, never hurt the heart which love you"
tell me,.. is tis a fallacy or smth?

2008-03-12T01:49:00.006+08:00

wohoo!!

guess my new lappy will kinda help me improve an active blogger.

HAHAHHA

so guys, stay tuned!
=)

fri gg down sch to settle my sch stuff.

wit mummytan, godma and dear!=)

hahahha shit.

i always make dear pon work.

thanks dear for coming back to my place again from workplace jus to get me lunch.

wit u urself drenched from head to toes.
Xie Xie! *huggsss*

sometimes,

certain things are unexplainable.

certain things are just this ridiculous.

certain things, just got to feel this way.

certain things, just got to react this way.

there's no why..

there's no reason..
there's no answer behind it..

when complexity sets in,

it arouses my complicated thoughts.

it arises my undefined fear.

but,

when ur loving look and touch gets involve,

its jus get rid of all nonsenses.

it jus gotta melt my heart,

making me go weak unknowingly.

resolving all unwanted annoying and unnecessary conflicts and contradiction thoughts of mine.

its a nice song...

a nice nice song...

my new blog song=)

You took your coat off and stood in the rain,

You're always crazy like that.

And I watched from my window,

Always felt I was outside looking in on you.

You're always the mysterious one with

Dark eyes and careless hair,

You were fashionably sensitive

But too cool to care.

You stood in my doorway,

with nothing to say

Besides some comment on the weather.

[Pre-Chorus 1]

Well in case you failed to notice,

In case you failed to see,

This is my heart bleeding before you,

This is me down on my knees, and...

[Chorus]

These foolish games are tearing me apart,

And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.

You're breaking my heart.

You're always brilliant in the morning,

Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.

Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.

You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones

As I clumsily strummed my guitar.

You'd teach me of honest things,

Things that were daring, things that were clean.

Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.

I hid my soiled hands behind my back.

Somewhere along the line, I must've gone Off track with you.

[Pre-Chorus 2]

Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,

Somebody who gave a damn,

Somebody more like myself.

[Chorus]

You took your coat off,

Stood in the rain,

You're always crazy like that.

2008-03-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

boo!

my damn first post usin my NEW LAPPY!=)

well.. i've all along been known as a com idiot.

loads more to learn usin tis lappy.

window vista. loads weird tings.

but its ok! i love weird tings and stuff!
hahahhah

oh! talking abt tat,

nick said im weird! hahaha

and she said she's 1% weird

while, myself, 0.000000001%,normal.

hahah guess she realli made me weird.

by making me luff to my lappy in e middle of e nite.

HAHAHHAH

thanks dear for accmpying me to e IT show and carry my lappy.

thanks godma for ALL efforts and help as well. XIE XIE!

thanks mummy tan for paying.

HAHAHHAHA

hell so many ppl la.

A's-- didnt do well.

but well.. it doesnt matter to me.

cos months ago alr prepared and planned

im alr enrolled in rp.

sports and excercise Sciences.

its a specialist course.

currently jus nid wait settle fees and wait for sch to start.

hope i'll do well since im doin smth i like.

thanks mummy tan, godma and auntis' support.

2yrs of jc life has been great.

at least, i experienced stuff which not everyone gets to enjoy.

bein tat nt everyone has e priority to a junior college.

lastly, congrats to ppl who had done well.

esp ginny and my dearie smellyass=)

ohh!!

i bot myself perfume!

finally.

coolwater,ladies.

hahah and dear kept complaining.

cos i alr got 3 diff type of scents which i've yet to finish them.

movie wit rica and honey at lido.

step up2- the streets.

nt too bad i think?

i wanna watch 2 faces of my gf!!!!

oh., i've caught e show, THE LEAP YEARS wit dear.

it was jus,.. okay....

shopping list is long yet,

addin on.....

show u all smth disgusting!

i dug these from dear's injured ear.

rembr?? i poked her ear and she went NUH.

HAHHAHAH!
here u go....

so damn eeeww....

when e next leap year comes,

will we still be holding hands watching movie tgt?

i go weak when u're near me

2008-03-01T19:24:00.002+08:00

working at aunt's clinic tmr.
anxious plus anticipation.
can u imagine if i take e wrong med?
omg. dangerous isnt it?

oh. i was telling peeps tat if i work at other places like,
f&b or fashions,
i could probably tell my frens or said things like,
"oh, do patronize when u're free"
but im working at clinic?
like, HUH?! TOUCHWOOD!
*heehee=))

jurong point wit dear last nite.
plaza mac to get food for my jie.
me and dear met et on e way.
took lift tgt. godma's placew.
mj again.
me and dear lost $ again.
2 brains still lose?
eeew. lousy us.

a busy nite, of mine.

e song is so well written.
li jiu zhe-- zai jian.
<再见>
电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎
故作的坚强虚伪的力量
撑过这一刻更悲伤
没接的电话是一种惩罚
不该想却割舍不下
如果再见我你能说什么
说爱我或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠选择不联络
因为我担心你会听见我
还那么难过
短讯声在响凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里更孤单
一句睡了吗像你的习惯
这夜晚为你而混乱
因为对你我连再见都
说不出口
我想你能懂爱还在心中

unexplainable.
电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎...

如果再见我你能说什么
说爱我或只是寂寞...

短讯声在响凌晨两点半...

一句睡了吗像你的习惯...

perhaps. perhaps. perhaps.

2008-02-29T14:18:00.004+08:00

i shld learn,
learn to be an active blogger.

eve bar ytd nite wit dear, jo fling, butt, ml, mich, jae, jon, connie and rusty.
when will it turn out to be a nice nite for ALL?
everyone seems bothered by their own probs.
i saw connie sitting alone drinking outside.
i saw jo fling on e swing alone.
i saw butt shutting her eyes, brain seems to be processing still.
i saw mich wit teary eyes, wit a chipped piece of glass and reddish stained piece of tissue in hand.
i saw jon emo-ing on e bench wit a confused and 'caught in between' face.
i saw rusty taking handbag and attemping to walk off.

wherelse,

i saw my dear luffing and getting high on e 2 bots of red wine.

i myself?
kinda half half tingy.
not exactly happy, or sad.
but i've got to admit smth.
i wasnt 'paying full attention' to e nite.
im there, physically.
but somehow or rather,
my mind's away.

butt tempted me on letting me know tat she bot 'after-eight' chocs.
.for herself.
god. tat's my crave.

i've been dining at foodcourts, coffee shops and fastfood outlets.
like, wtf.

anw, thanks alvin for been wanting to take me out for a feast treat.
but, i'd like to use my own cash.

*im waiting for my pay day!!!

gonna buy myself THAT perfume,
THAT choc,
and "THAT" list goes on and on...

i miss those days,
whereby i dun haf to pick up e tab, at all.

butt's gonna start work tmr.
wont say much.
wad i wanna say,
u shld alr knew it all and well.
all e best.
it's gonna be ur career,
treasure it.

anw,
thanks dear for cooking lunch for me b4 i rushed off for work on tues.
nt forgetting tat ice milo.
also, coming back to my place again jus to get me lunch b4 i work on thus.

dear lost her locker's key at my place.
like,.. huh?

let me formulate e words
and, breathe them into ur ear.

2008-02-24T18:20:00.004+08:00

(snapped)

sentosa on wed wit dear.
swimming on fri aft our satisfyin kfc meal.
sentosa on sat wit dear, butt, ml and jae.

mj at godma's hse on fri and sat nite.
thou' lose money; fun still.

toking abt money,...
i dunno y i've to fret over money.

i cant buy wtv tat i like.
i cant eat wtv gd food tat i crave for.
i cant even satisfy my little desire like buying myself my fav 'after-eight' chocs.

im tryin to restrain myself...

my sis told me smth...
which is rite or wrong?
'never make someone your everything,
cause when he or she leaves your life,
apparently, your everything will become nothing'

im afraid;
always.

2008-02-11T04:04:00.007+08:00

WOOOO...
been damn hell long since i last blogged!

HAPPY LUNAR YR TO ALL!=)
hee.
pai nian here and there.
tis yr's special!
dear went ard pai nian wit me!
damn nice.
dear went for my family's reunion buffet dinner too!
too much happenings and outings!
cant list out one by one.

shall let photos do e job den!
too many pics as well!
shall post only afew funni ones.

my jie...

my jie and jiefu?

HAPPY bdae to JO! my big time kuku fling!=)

jae e lazy pig and me!=)

butt,pretty jer and me!

stunt.

MORE STUPID STUNTS of me and dear..

my sexy mummytan and me=)

me and xiao wan zi

cny.. dear and me

still got alot more pics. but,im lazy...

bleh.=)

2008-01-23T19:13:00.000+08:00

CRAZY!
look at e amount of MEDICINEsssssssss i haf to take!
i swear i hate poxpox!

went to c doc tat day.
unusual case as i am....accordin to e doc.
cos it was ard e 6th day of my poxpox,
yet was running a fever of 38.5?
cool. cos of it, was given priority to e collection of med.

THANKS to my beloved gay buttbutt and dear
for accmpying and waiting wit me to e docs.
dear been here realli almost daily to pei me.
realli appreciated it.
=)

thanks to all frens out there who texted or etc,
askin me to rest well and stuff.

a big big thank you
to godma as well...
=))

thru tis, i c, i feel...
some are real concern of u...
sadly,...
some are jus fufilling their duties towards u.
crappy-ly hurtful no?

i finally found myself steppin a step nearer to my dream..
a goal in life,
a passion for life.
count myself lucky for havin so many loves ones ard to support my decision.
i'll try to give my utmost best in it.
a new path of my life.
i may be later den ppl for 2 yrs.
but, as wad i always say,
its now or never...
late better den nvr.

2008-01-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

boo!
been damn hell super duper long since i blogged.
guess wad?
im down on CHICKEN POX as well!
wad e hell.

been stayin home,.
and, its enuffing to kill me!

thanks dear for stayin over almost everynite to pei me.
rushing down to plaza aft work to get me food.
and e green-tea fap from starbucks tat im long craving for.

well.. i had chicken pox and guess wad?

ive been eating all e forbiddened food(on accord to e older generations)
but well,.. according to medically-certed doctors,
any type of food can be consumed even down wit tis stupid pox.
so,.. tis is e list of forbiddened food which i had over e days:
1) a macs meal(wit fries and green tea)
2) oyster mee suan(wit chilli and vinegar)
3) 2pieces of chicken macnuggets koped from dear(chicken bein a big NO NO..as heard)
4) delifrance
5) green-tea fap w whipped cream(contains egg?.. another big NO NO)
6) curry pok from old chang kee(e most sinful ever..wit chickens and eggs in it)
7) hot and spicy potato chips(e most craziest ting ever)
8) ban mian(made of flour and EGGS)
9) instant noodles laksa flavoured

when i told ppl tat i ate potato chips,
all gave me e same reaction and reply>
SIAO!?
loco...
insane...
crazy...
hee=))

dear slimmed down when she had poxpox.
i think im e opposite!
omg. crazy ting.

god.my poxpox growing more and more..
fever gg on and off..

i've been showering to keep myself clean too!
(according to docs)
well.. but some say chicken pox shldnt shower?

again proven e forever unresolved conflicts between e cheenas and e westerns.
fever?...
cheena says cover wit thick blanket and sweat hard time and u'll be fine aft tat.
western says try to slp in air con room, shower and suppress e high body temp.
poxpox?...
cheena says cover urself, dun expose to wind.
western says try to expose to air so tat its bacteria free and shower to keep clean.

so... wad nw?

hope i'll be able to get well soon!
so many meet-ups comin!
and! i wanna haf a nice cny!
and! shop for nice clothes!

and here.. tis part is for smelly ass!(jae)
...cheer up alrite.
we'll be here for u. =))
all e best for wadever comes next..

well.. was reading my previous,..
abt one yr ago's entries.
tis was something heart-felt aft my ahgong passed away..
something i've blogged last time....
*
aft so much so tat happened,
i kinda sunddenly feel tat kinship is impt.
v v v impt.
esp aft my ah gong's stuffs had been settled,
its like,i really felt and could sense e importance of kinship.
i could see those bondings,unity,lending of help to one another,
remind each other tis and tat,etc.
from minor to major stuffs i would say.

suddenly jus haf tis tot in my mind.
like,y didnt my mum had more children.
den i would haf more siblings.
be it gd or bad events,
its always better to haf more support and help
but aft pausing and thinking for awhile,
i was like,aee?no wad.i've got my cousins and all.
they're jus like my siblings too.
i believe they could do and take up e jobs too,.
will be like my sis or bro too.
will be ppl who will be there to support,help and love me.

.....

e two nites.stayed up.my 1st time so close wit them.
nvr had such long chat wit jeff kor esp.
we were even tokin abt wad we did and played when we were kids.
damn paiseh of ourselves.
hahah jeff kor didnt change i realised.
he is still e korkor i know.
i still enjoy being wit him tat much.
jus like when i was i kid last time.
we both always tag tgt and gang up do evils.haha
and i swear.he's humorous.in a cool way.haha.

phew.so many things happened.
great impact on my family esp,.
smth happened.yeah,those who knows,
thanks so much for e support and care.
thanks 38 family for helpin my mum.
im not gd enough for e job.
i only will add fuel to fire,
so realli got to let my auntis handle e task.

hmmm tat's abt all.
family ties..
mum went down to lawyer firm ytd.
more or less,..
everything's much of a confirmation.
dunno wad im feeling inside..
no matter how sucky and blood-boiling he is;
i guess, i'll miss him.

both my sis and me also havin chicken pox.
sadly, my mum went out still...
but yea, she did bot food for us.
thanks?

2008-01-06T06:19:00.000+08:00

《如果你也听说》

作词：李焯雄作曲：周杰伦

我发现站了好久不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我再多人陪只会更寂寞
许多话题关于我就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可委屈却没有人诉说
夜半信仰丛白剥落拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我
对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默其实反而显得做作
夜半信仰丛白剥落拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得要无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我
对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔
如果你想起我你会想到什么

alrite. here u go.
new blog song.
think there's jus a special element in tis song.
e feel of e song is jus so rite.
e meaning of e song,nice.
perhaps, it reminds me of something?
or,. rather, and someone?
awful experience? mayb?

jus reminded.
done wit it totally.
be it if *u believe me anot.

sometimes, i think my words hurts *u.
sometimes, i think when i mention e past,
*u dislike.. *u loathed it even, i guess?
i dun mean it.
be it if *u believe me anot,
im done wit it. totally.
jus tat e pain of e wound hurts occasionally.
when im reminded..
i tried to suppress it.
i tried not to show,not to tell.
not to let *u know.
not tryin to hide from *u.
jus didnt wan *u to feel THAT ever again.
smth which i unintentionally let *u experienced;
once, or even twice.
each time *u felt e stirred and awful feel, pain, or e hurt;
it's double on my side. im serious.
it hurts me to hurt u..
*u wipe off my tears,
*u held me tightly in ur warmth-filled arms,
when im silly and stupidly cryin for another tis worth-less person?
worth it?
u tell me... worth it?
e drunk nites,.
each time u pulled me away from those guys,
i pushed u away from me.
each time i do that,
i dun feel gd. at all.
i teared.
u felt hurt inside by each push.
i felt double e effect.

each time u're an inch away from me,
i felt uneasy.
i felt lost.
esp even when i was drunk,
jus one step away, i felt lost,
i felt insecure.
when u're there, by my side,
i jus gulp down e alcohol witout worries.
cos i know u're there.
i wont take u for granted.
for tis, u can haf my words.

as quoted, from ur blog,
on my side too,..
i wan u to be my cg and my ch to-be.

jus sometimes, i dunno if it's tat,
u're too sensitive? or...
im too insensitive.

2008-01-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quizzes

well.. found tis thingy.
rather crappy? hahah.

and tis.. more crappy.
answer a few qns is all u haf to do..

A soul from Venus with a sexual appeal 8.5 of 10.

Guys hold your breath...

Lets101 - Free Dating Site

insane.
how crap these can be yeah?

Lets101 Quizzes - online fun quiz

insanity.

well.. can tell tat im really really
surrounded and occupied wit BOREDOM.
hope DEAR faster faster get well!!!

i wan a tv in my room!
so wad if i haf a washroom attached to my room?!
i wan a tv! TV!!!

i guess, my presence doesnt matters.
surrounded by artificials.
f-a-m-i-l-y.
wad a word?
perhaps, something i've nvr knew since day one.

u nvr fail for once.
even wit simple words,
u get thru.
u get by.
all cos u're true.

2008-01-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008 to all!
BOO!!!=)) hee.
here are some of e pics taken..

sorry peeps.. my blog's damn retarded..

been back from genting for almost 2 weeks?

yeah. happening thru out..

ohh.. haven sort out those pics taken in genting.

will sort and post them once ready.

since im not home now..

bloggin at dear's place nw.

dear's sick!

omg. chicken pox!

hahah came over to stayover to tc and pei her.

and boo!knows e god best damn thing?

i wanna declare,

i've not had got chicken pox b4!!

HAHHA!

mummy tan's

uper hell damn angry wit me.

but well.. i jus told her tat i dun mind and

will tc of myself if i really touch wood sway sway kena.

though mummy wun be readin tis?

but i hope she wouldnt be mad wit me.,

well.. i dun mean to refuse listenin to u.

thanks godma for all e help and advises.

telling me, e noob, all e do's and dont's of poxpox.

hahaha=))

met up wit hon on one late nite.

somewhere nearby my place.

had a wonderful chat,.
smth which we had not done for a period of time man..

nice.. =)

will be havin a family dinner on coming sat.

hope i'll be able to go!(provided i no pox pox)

hee!=))

mr jervis lee! pls take care man!

better drink water and eat med when i feed u!

must guai guai! den will recover fast fast!

=))

2007-12-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

presenting to u my mr jervis lee..

i'll be back real soon. tc my dear.
and u better eat dinner daily!
and be guai!
if nt,.. ur earS.. gone.
HAHHA i'll pull them till drop!
hhahahahhah.

alrite. till then.

2007-12-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

dear and me

our ugly pic..

stupid snap-shot by dumb dear while im on e phone!

i f*cking miss her...

.cared.
.hurted.
rica...
let me formulate e words and whisper them into ur ears.
i miss u callin me goblok.
i miss u wakin me in middle of nite to study.
i miss u remindin me to have my meal when it's time.
i miss u callin me big baby when im nt takin proper care of myself.
i miss u takin care of me when im drunk.
i miss u wiping off tears when i sobbed.
i miss u applyin calamine lotion when i had rashes.
i miss u tellin me tat u're my pillar of strength.
i miss u hushing me tat everything's alrite and i still haf u.
i miss ur every little gesture of care, concern and love.
i miss u caring and feelin e heartache of my past.
i miss e way u are.
i miss e way we were.
.those were e days.

im gonna be away for trip soon.
i'll miss my mr jervis lee.
and dear, u better miss me too!
WAHAHHA.
=))

2007-12-08T03:19:00.000+08:00

nice song...

"Final Goodbye"

I never should of waited so long to say
What I've always known since the very first day
Thought that you would stay forever with me
But the time has come to leave

Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you 'til the final goodbye

Hold, draw me close, close to my lips
Listen intently as I tell you this
Outside the world wages its wars,
I'll rest in peace as long as you know

Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you 'til the final goodbye

Promise you our love will carry on
Until you turn eternal, we belong

Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
It's you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you till the final goodbye

Her respectful lips for the last time
And spell out the lyrics to love in the sky
Its you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you till the final goodbye

e very immediate next time when i brush pass u again,
i hope,i swear,i try;
i promise,
e awful feelings of complexation and complicity,
would be gone. all gone.
totally of non-existence.
i have to play a fair game.
i have. and,i will.

my dear, cheer up!=))
anything,im here.

clubbed at PLAY on thurs.
too packed. too lousy songs.
great ppl though.
overwhelming crowds.
e dance floor was too packed.

i love e way ur body moved as e music plays.

oh! had bbq e nite b4 at gay's place.
did alot of paiseh stuffs.
which shall not be revealed a single bit.
lips sealed.
i love chivas wit green tea more den chivas wit coke.
but,i love chivas on e rock more den chivas wit green tea.
HAHHA! tryin to crap here.
hee. thanks dumb,for reading and being named,dumb.
bye,DUMB!
hee=)
*lame-ing*

2007-12-04T03:17:00.000+08:00

i totally fell in love!
wit gwen stephanie's-- four in the morning.
freakin nice..
anyone got tis song in their phone?!
send me!!
and u'll get a free kiss.
BOO!! KIDDING.
hahaha.

im beat.
im tired.

wohoo.. tat's how e song starts off...

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it's say
I guess I feel alright

its realli a darn nice song i think.
hee. i like!
=)

inner struggle?
make it a no then.

2007-11-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

im beat!
tired.
been rather happening.
well, not e extreme, yet.

went prawning at farm mart.
wit hon,gay,jojo and dear.
had fun!
though e waitin kills.
no choice la.
impatient me.
e waitin till could be borin,
lucky got everyone's presence and company.
all e gd companions.

walkin out of farm mart at nite is realli damn
WU LU!
but its nice,.
holdin dear's hand, walkin,chattin and laughin,
under e moonlit and starry nite.
dear stayed over.

went sentosa wit dear for a short tanning session.
not much effect.dun like.
i miss e days,gg sentosa in big group.
hell mad and fun i'll go.

rushed over to hon's hse to put our stuffs.
ONE big bulky bag.
changed.
cabbed down to meet gay and jo at cathay.
had dinner and off to eve bar.
drank as we played games.

bused to clarke quay.
went clubbin.
at PLUSH.
event-underage party.
freak boredom.
unhot ppl.
loads of bengs and lians.

but well.. heng music is gd plus wit clique ard.
as usual,danced and played.

clubbing is not a complicated or unsightful thing.
so abort e misconception if u're havin one.
thus, play while u're young.
meanwhile, draw e line.
paradoxically, let ur hair down and party thru e nite.

legs damn suan!

gg shoppin tmr.
omg. HOW???! my legs so suan LA.

here u go.. our crazy pics at eve bar..

our relationship,
special is e word.

2007-11-24T18:08:00.001+08:00

dear n me n cookie.
cookie damn cute!

eve bar

boss of eve bar

beef noodles. nice!=)

dear's so-called part ONE present.
our one month!=)))

thanks dear for e effort,idea and time!=))
to travel all e way to haf it ordered,
den another day to travel down to collect it!=))

it was indeed a surprise.

trophy was smth which i always asked for and joked abt.
didnt know u'll realli get it done for me.
hahha.

gave dear her present.
num de tank top.
wit a damn paiseh 'doin' of mine.
forgot to snap-shot it
but anw,hope she'll likes it=)

A's finally finally finally finally over!!!=)

i've got so So SO many tings on mind to do!!

ur every eye-contact,
i cant seems to escape.
ur every little touch,
i cant seems not to give in.
every little gesture counts.
every little thoughtfulness noted.

happy first mth my dear!=)

2007-11-19T02:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAE MY HONEY!=)
we had a great day!
shoppin bag damn full,
wallet damn empty.
HAHAHHA
=))

clubbed at play.
first time.
I LIKE.
many gays tat nite.
had fun dancing with dear though.
rach hon yj lauren and co danced alittle too.
danced wit tis gal too,like, she suddenly came over to initiate dance.
danced back too.
her dance style is quite hot,in a way.
its wild,in a way.
not bad.
she intro herself and her fren to me.
well.. cannot rembr names nor their faces even.
their frens surrounded and cheered while we both danced.
nice,in a way.

OHH!!! me and dear wore same top tat day!
HEE.

me and dear damn qiao thumb injured!=))

me and dear exchange footwear. walked ard.

went out wit godma,jon,wq and et.
jon is still lame and funni like b4.
HAHHA.
our chain of stupid actionS jus can send me off laughin like mad LA.
sentosa and mahjong!!!! ROARS.
=))

e stupid us, forever.
e loving us, everly.

love is all abt when two becomes one.
when two different lifes accomodate and turn into one.
inevitably havin to acknowledge e special-ness.

comparing my past r/s to nw,
wad a juxtapose.

2007-11-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

wohoo.
guess,
i've been enuffing a real happy kid.
been meetin dear almost everyday?
heh.

think dear looks cute in her workin attire!
plus tat green tie.
HAHAH. "ah boy!!!.."
too bad dear dun like to wear formal shirt?
think she looks nice in them.

been really neglecting my studies.
well.. shall do wad i shld now!
its gonna be hectic.
duet paper. shit econs and chem.
it's killing enuff pls.

meetin hon and sweetie later at macs.
i miss them!
*hungry*

thanks for every moment.
cherished. treasured. appreciated. remembred.

every little gesture counts.

well.. i kinda cant wait to step into e workin world..
seems fun? yeah,. hopefully.

2007-11-06T18:53:00.000+08:00

a few days nvr hear from godma le.
dunno if she's fine?
if u're readin tis,
take care alrite.=)

maths paper 2 today.
no confidence, at all.
not even abit bit.

im tired.
im beat.
im so screwed up.
a's faster over pls!
seriously not bothered by e outcome, so called e results.
jus wanna hurry get over it.

i think dear got manly hand!
kk zoom in for u.. see her veins!
*strong

manly eh?
hahaha

im sleepy.
my bed! here i come!
=)) lala land......

2007-11-04T02:28:00.000+08:00

wooooo...
was listenin to e songs in my com.
Lee Hom's ni bu zai tuned.
its been long since i listen to tat song.
i wouldnt use e word trigger.
but jus kinda reminded of it.
e times which i endured thru so hard.
e times which i blogged at late nites while listenin to e song.
e times where pains sharply pierce my heart.
e times where i wanna try so hard,
amend and resolve e pathetic situation,
e pathetic state im in.
e feelin of wantin to say or voice or show smth so so much,
but jus couldnt?

nth much. jus reminded of those craps.
some practical illustration;
if a hairband has broke,
no point tapin it back.
throw.
if a toothbrush has yellowed,
no point washin it over and over again.
throw.
if a shirt has crumpled,
no point ironin it back to shape.
throw.
if a story has been read,
no point readin and repeatin it.
sometimes,or perhaps, most probably,
when smth is over,
its over.

well.. shit tat song.
thanks.

i cant wait for 16th to come!
spendin my every seconds of breathing moment wit u.
my every moment on Earth watching ur movements,
hearing ur voice, feelin ur warmth.
e thoughts and flashes of ur face jus bring me away from books,
away from reality.
indulged; awaiting anticipations.
e interlocked fingers jus fits.
for god-knows reason.
16th faster come come come!
chiong-ing everyday!=))
parties,my darlsss??=))

2007-11-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

i think my mum's attitude really sucks.
jus go lead ur busy and full of entertainments life.
wtv.

less den 12 hrs to maths paper.
so out of tune.
damn sucky hell no mood.
wtv la huh.
as usual,shall go scribble some craps.

she spoils my day.

but still!
im lookin forward to tmr!
im meetin dear!
and gay+jojo.

when will e 16th comes?
funs rollin in aft funs.
i seriously terribly cant wait.
takin A's is like a total waste of time for me.
cmi.

yet,im alittle afraid of not bein able to get a job next time.
oh god, yes,i am.
expenses? mad.

show me wad u've got.
.imissu.

cookie> gd life.
ar la ar la..

2007-10-30T17:53:00.001+08:00

i think i missed out these pics...

<---i love tis pic
think we looked quite alike?
plus,stood alike HAHHA.

sat for e darn first paper today.
well.. new syllabus,..
e paper's abit weird weird.
like diff from wad we did from past yr papers?

kinda hope e rest of e papers also weird weird.
better chance for me to pass.
*evil,k i know*

struggling hard.
sucks.
k enuff abt sch.

i think im realli e impatient sort of ppl.
plus, e '3min hotness' type..
well.. i'll try to get THAT done.
smth tat i've planned and its on e way?
hope i wun give up halfway though?
ahaha.

countdown to my final breakfree!
i cant wait!
full of fun every single ever day of mine i think!=))

3more days to meet dear!
.misses.

2007-10-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

no time also pls.

less den 15hours to my first paper!
shitty shit.

thanks dear for everything!=)
and e lucky charm! HAHAH=))

im dyin soon!=))

2007-10-26T02:28:00.000+08:00

wohoo.
i realli had a great time wit godma and co.
=))

went to dear's place and stayed over.
had breakfast tgt and i went vivo wit dear.
dear went off to work and i headed home.

dear on phone wit me.
hahah made her snap shot as i wanna c her in tat green tie!=))
*while she jia jia eat snake*
so cute!=) heh.

i simply hope tat time stops when im wit u.
jus parted... and i feel like wantin to meet u?

2007-10-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

FIRST.
HAPPY BDAE to my godma!!!
i hope she'll be happy always and ever.
i hope she'll be in gd health.
i hope she'll be cheerful and smile and luff daily.
im glad tat my dear god sis had found someone so capable and true to her.
im so darn happy tat i've resolve tis matter.
at least,its smth like a burden off my heart.
anticipating for e dinner.
anticipating for more of e family feelin tgt again.
so long lost. and i god damn miss it.
and i know. it's back. i'll not let it slip again.

i dunno y i kept feelin tired.
mayb its all in my mind?
studyin sucks.
well... its someting i've to overcome though.
jus tis period.and im done.

23th.tues.
met dear and gay for dinner.
had macs.
walked ard for awhile aftwhich.

i dunno y u seems to have got tis magic,tis power.
to let me be so attracted to u.
when u speak, my heart jus skipped fast.for no god reason.
when u held my hand,fingers interlocked,palm to palm,
i jus got to take deep breathes.
u told me before> tat when u hold someone's hand, it would be tat's it.
and u wun ask further on.
and i got it. fully. im not dumb.nor retard pls.
hahah.
so, dun ask me if i know wad it means pls.
ke ai. hahah
its a day.its our day.
a day where our hearts left for each other.

im really sorry tat i cant really give my time to u now.
bear wit me? hang on wit it as like im tryin?
aft all my tis shitty A's,
i'll show u all. i'll give all.
i'll make u my priority.
=)

2007-10-22T01:01:00.001+08:00

had steamboat for dinner ytd.
wit hon,dear and linkiat?
omg he's a funni guy.
thanks for driving us ard though=))
pei hon ard wit her slr cam to snap pics.
hon and lk went off for project first.
dear and me continued eatin.
wa,.. i cannot make it pls!
ohh thanks dear for cookin and kept giving me food.
oh! and for peelin off e shells of e prawns.
hahaa.

went to shop shop and walk ard aft tat.
SO DAMN FREAKINGZ qiao!
saw rach rica and ser.
kukujojo called and she came down wit gay budbud.
hon and lk joined too.
like,one big family.
hahah.

hope e ting between e four of us wont fall apart jus like tat.
everyone cared,no?
effort from each side will do e job.
give in alittle and everything would be cool.

--well... i jus received a msg from someone so impt to me.
it touches deep down into my heart.
i got it. thanks for e motivation.
i dunno if u'll be readin tis?
but i do hope so?
thanks for e encouragement.
there's jus too much distraction which lingers ard.
which i cant throw them away overnite.
thanks loads loads.
i realli appreciated tat.
pls take care of ur health?
stay happy too. cheers.
=))

freakin hell i jus cant slp at nite.
there's jus so many stuff juggling ard?
screw tis feelin.
i dun like.

dun leave me hanging,
i'll feel lost.
dun leave me unanswered.
i'll feel crappy.
not here not there?
wooo.. cool..
im floating ard.
can see?
k. lame.

2007-10-20T02:24:00.000+08:00

vivo's nt straight lamp post

went to make my pasport today.
bloody hell waited damn long?
was damn pissed LA.

wit mummy tan too.
ask her for $$ den she say i still owe her phone bill?
shitty crap.
den she went shoppin?
OMG? i bet she spend 100over LA.
bot so many clothes den still haolian to me?
hahah.

met rica rach and ser aft tat.
well.. smth weird happened
got tis 2weird gals who came out from e toilet suddenly said hello.
dunno to who? one of e four of us?
me and rach outside,
rica and ser infront.
rica turned and hello back?
omg.insane.
rach said they interested?
in? we didnt managed to find out. crap.
well.. craps.

went to find dear at work at vivo.
wanted to XIA her.
but obviously,mission failed.
tao yan pls.
she looked so cute yet retarded in tat orange strip tag!=)
hahah.

anw,rach was standin so close to me, face to face,
leanin close?
and my fren saw?! omg
crap.

ate BK. went outside to chill.
thanks dear for walkin me to e bus int
and waitin e bus wit me.
=)

every little movement counts.
every little gesture shows.
every second of eye contact melts.
somehow.

2007-10-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

tues.
intended to fall in LOVE,wit my bks.
but god knows,rain poured.
tat's it.
my pattern,
sure SLEEP.

met dear at nite.
had macs dinner tgt.
gay bud came too.
seeing her SO HAPPY?
i can sense her happiness even!
i hope she'll be tat happy,always.

gay bud went home aft tat.
dear stayed over.
i put on hair band for her PLS!
damn funni.even snap shot a pic of her.

wed.
got bloody tuition at 3pm.
woke up at 2.06pm?
rushed and cabbed down.
lunched wit dear at some lousy pok coffeeshop there.
aft tuition,met dear.
den gaybud,jojokuku and co.
had fun here and there.
eve bar for awhile.
cabbed back home wit dear.
dear stayed over again!
*hope mum's not freaked out
e stupid stants we had to act at 4am is real irritating!
well,tat's not to make mummytan worry ba i guess.

dear PONned work.
lazy pok!
went lot1 for KFC.SINFUL!
accompanied her to e doc.
to take MC.
waited so long pls.
went back lot1.
wanted to watch movie.
but doesnt seems to haf smth nice tat we could catch?
went to take neoprints instead!
pics will be posted,soon.
slacked alittle.
den went off.

ohh! i wan e stupid smell so nice ting from body shop!
i fell for 2 of them.
didnt rembr wad falvour scents were tat thou.SHIT.
must go RE-SMELL all den buy?
jackass.
hahah dumb.
nw got discount! i must fast fast go grab!

how can things be so in-tune?
how can things turned out to be so in flux?
how can things be so beautifully done,den,explained so meticulously?
how can things ever get tat natural and so accord to e flow?
yeah. u showed me so,u showed me all.
i dun mean to doubt any of ur words.
jus tat insecure is wad i've got,wit a hidden say.
not expecting anything, be it gd or bad,
jus hope tat as e music plays on,
my heart skips on.

2007-10-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

*jin dian.k,it was commented to be hot?cool i think.

happy bdae to rach sweetie!=)
went out ard late aftnoon?
shopped for present tgt wit hon,rica and ser.
went dinner aftwhich.
wit rach and co.
thanks uncle and aunt for e dinner too.

went to check out chips,tis bar.
nice music. but doesnt seems cosy?
hit eve bar instead.
met dear,gay and jojo there.
had martell and beer.
=))

lotsa tings happened here and there.
know,i cant rembr much.
only here and there.
but yeah,rembred e moment when everyone's out xcept for me and dear.

undescribable situation.
unspoken sparks tat triggers e feel.
a moment of unregrettable actions.
how natural,how contained, as it was.
goin according to e flow it seems.
open as we are,yet, hidden wit individual feels and thoughts.
a drama requires gd actors.
a game requires gd players.
perhaps,a moment of unforgettable stage,requires gd kissers.

thanks for tat. special i would say.
it can be said to be left as an impact.
not forgettin tat super turn off aunti?
shocked. an impact indeed. HAHAH!=))

2007-10-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

Graduation Day today!
so fast pls!
my eyes blinked and 2yrs' over?
oh come on'...
been playin like nobody's business.
jc1> been gg out and hangin ard wit daosapao,sexydayi
and esp,vio.
jc1 is like so fun and so unbothered always.
been havin e "u think i care?" attitude.

fuckin got real carried away.
attitude adopted worsen when jc2's journey starts.
like LOCO? yes,im gonna use e word SIAO.
leadin unhealthy lifestyle.
discovered e crazy madness nonchalant towards my studies.
exuberant life leadin to failure aft failure for my papers.

thinkin back. how heng can i get?
motherfucker. met HODs and principal thru'out my 2 yrs of jc life.
scrape thru jc1 promos though.
ridiculous me.
i think i realli appreciate and wanna thx my tchers alot.
esp mr chue> my da chang jin who's e highest rank among e HODs
plus linyee laoshi>maths HOD.
they helped me alot pls!
esp tis yr when i got into alot troubles,
they always put in gd words for me.
esp when meetin P cos of my results.
saved by them again and again.

well.. studies realli puts me off.
im so damn bloody hell super duper idiotically fuckin Distracted!
HOW TO STUDY?????
when feelings sets in,
its hard to control ur mind.
well.. if u understand wad i mean...

i dunno y u affect me alot.
ur mood,to be exact.

thanks to all e peeps out there encouragin and askin and pushin me to study.

nobody failed me.
i failed myself.
i said i didnt care.
u think so?

2007-10-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

HIT FINALLY!
my 100th post.
HAHHAHA=))

2007-10-11T13:25:00.000+08:00

i finally hit EVE BAR.
last sat didnt get to go.
and i went,last nite.

GAYbud sang WO KE YI so many times!
i heard her sorrows though.
and she stole jo's kiss?? HOW CAN.
omg. hahahha
=))

JObenzhu was kinda out of flux.
usually she would be e one running away when 'dirty play' sets in.
but ytd,she's abit cranky.
i've seen e unseen side of her.
=))

DEARzhuzhu was cheeky and retarded as usual.
alittle more cheeky den usual though.
but less retard den usual.
again,i've seen and felt e gentle side of her.somehow.
=))

dun ask me y i hit bar even when its 20days b4 my first paper.
it's simple. yet wit complex and complication.
i went there to breathe.

A's so near. unfortunately,not much work's gettin into my pea brain.
well.. im so distracted.

hmmmmmm.....
but nvm. shall listen to wad dear told me.
one ting at a time.
yapyap.

argh. ROARS ROARS.

a mixture of feelin last nite.
woooo.. smth like,..
bad, good mood.
happy, upset.
highest peak, lowest peak.

does lust lead to love?
or e other way?
love lead to lust?

anw,mum called to pick fault at me.
like,huh?
come on'. i really dislike it.
i dun understand at times.
when she's in foul mood,
she's put it on us?
like? HELLO...
i may be loathing and really dislike it.
but,i dun blame her.
she's my mum.
msged mummytan aft e rather heated conversation wit her.
not sorry,but yeah,a word of sincere concern.

anw,someting tat she said realli did put me off.
she asked me to be more guai.
like,HUH?
i dun steal,i dun fight,i dun pop pills,i dun slp ard.
im jus a little playful and wildful like wad mrs chew said.
im alr considered to be guai.
even when i go out,i'll inform her of my trace at e v least.
ridiculous.

im not aiming to climb up e mountain of my life.
im jus easily contended.
happiness and laughters are e memories i'll bring into e coffin.
achievements and cetificates are not tings tat u can though.
and i've gradually learn to miss and appreciate ppl in my life.
even e so-called 'passerbys'.

when complication sets in,
im shaken.
left or right?
left stays cool.
but i refuse to get near. cos of my since-young tough high pride.
and as myth and legends,gals dun initiate.
right stays near.
too near and sweet tat there's a danger as i might fall for.
dangerous stants which im adoring and loving.

im lame-ing so much.
bye=))
gg back to slp for awhile.
den wake up study? i think, i hope
so tired.
reached home at 2plus am aft havein my late dinner ytd.
slept at ard 4am.
gay called. talked awile.
abt to slp alr.
den dear called. chatted den put down.
so zhun, jojo called.
talked den slp.
hahah one aft another. so zhun lo their timing.
funni shit.

2007-10-10T03:58:00.000+08:00

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hmm? not tat true?
hahah hmmm but i always perfered mature ppl.
concrete example.. my EXs all older den me. by yrs.

met aunti tan.
she like havin chit chat session wit me only.
cool shit. =))

study.
focus.
charge.

2007-10-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

ytd..
went jurong for mrs chew's tuition.
went to lot1.
had dinner wit 38family.
hon came over to take stuffs.
waited for dear's call.
went to bus stop to fetch her.
went plaza to shopshop abit.
headed to hon's place.
slacked and all.
ohh!!
den we watched SHE'S THE MAN!!=))
was half lyin damn comfortably on e sofa.
wit a heavy pig(..dear..)
lyin on my lap.
hahah ate chips and i had beer.
aft tat talked on phone wit kukujojo.
slacked awhile and went off.
walked back wit gay and dear.
gay cabbed home.
dear came over to stayover.

i wanna train muscles!
so tat i'll win dear next time!
hahha she fuckin strong LA.
.unfair!.

played den chatted till mornin?
mummy tan came in room.
saw both me and dear squeezin tgt on my bed.
i BET she got a fuckin shock.
cos her face and words tells it all.
she asked me to move down to e below's bed.
which is uncomfortable. sure can get to slp de.
dusty lehh.
of cos i ignored her.

i slept quite well ytd.
hahah usually is i wake dear up.
today is dear wake me up seh!
first time.
hahaha didnt bring her out to bus stop.
sorry dear!
i too tired. hahah.
and i went back to slp.

all e way till when mummy tan's back.
mummy tan woke me up and asked me ridiculous stuff.
first qns> u and ur bung fren les ar?
me>eyes pop out.. HUH??
k, i swear i wanted to say yes,but we're not couple..
HAHAH! but yeah. i acted blur.
me> huh?? no la! siao ah.
den she asked smth like if dear's my bung gf.
i was like.. no??? she's not bung.*error
HAHHAHAHA!!=))
funny shit.
well she told me she kena xia si seeing us on bed slpin so closely.
come on'..
so sensitive.

wanna laugh till drop pls.
den i was thinkin oh...
wad happens if she see us in e midst of fightin/playin on bed?
wad happens if she see us huggin each other to slp?
wad happens if she see me slpin on dear's strong arm?
wad happens if she hear us callin each other dear?
like,OMG. i wanna and can jus laugh till drop pls!!!

k.. all tis shit aside.

i dunno how to describe wad im feelin nw.
but yeah. im "not in gd shape".

i feel like drinkin SO badly.
i guess,if i were to drink,
i might cry and talk rots,
instead of e usual High.
but on e other hand,
i dared not.
im afraid tat my secrets will be poured out.
wad an idiotic inner struggle.
im lost.
im tired.
im beat.
i kept sayin tat i nid a break.
it seems so tat im takin a break for alr far too long.
hello.. i haven even start my break. a real one babes.

im afraid to tear.
i nid to breathe. so badly.

things happen all for a reason.
for a reason,thus their existence.
i refuse to admit.
i refuse to face e truth.
i refuse to accept e shit.
i refuse to... i jus refuse to.

its inevitable.
thanks for everything.
e spark,e chemistry,e long lost feelin.
so near yet so far.
i dunno wad u're thinkin.
i like it.but i loathed it.
paradox.contradiction, i know.

从那一天起,
我忘记了呼吸..

*ilove their company.
huggs.

2007-10-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

me and gay's arcade bball highscore.
hahah.
im lazy to blog...
zZzZzZ.
gg sch tmr.
dumb.

went back sch today.
did bit of shitty maths.

goner. gonecase.
.goodgame.
tat's it.

everything nw aside.
living wit only my soul,myself and my books.
*attainable?*
come on'..
argh.

self-motivating=> best form of motivation.

2007-10-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

你听得到

有谁能比我知道你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱只有你能听得到
还有没有人知道你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们都默默的微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊我舍不得离开

new blog song!!
yay!!=)
hahah k i know tis song is like damn long time ago alr.
but i jus like tis song.

还有没有人知道你的微笑像拥抱

多想藏着你的好只有我看得到

知道不能太依赖怕你会把我宠坏

你的香味一直徘徊我舍不得离开
=))

2007-10-01T13:20:00.000+08:00

IM SICK!
=(
vomitted dunno how many damn times.
wth.
heard tat nowadays alot ppl like tat.
VIRUS. stay away from me!! mauhahaha.
bloody ass. actually wanted to go sch today.
but like cant?
feel so weak.
i walk a few steps alr like sei like tat.
mummy tan also stomach not well.
must be cos of e food we ate.
either tat or its cos i drank redbull on empty stomach.
wth.

here's some of e sentosa+vivo leftover pics.
funnni videos not bein uploaded i think

sat.went macs to study.
study not efficient,at all.
walked hon home.
gay cabbed home.
and jer DEAR came over to stayover.
dear's damn zhuzhu! late for work still refused to wake up!
wakin her up is tougher job den any stuff.
hahah but she woke up alr so guess she jus love to laze on bed.
lazy zhuzhu.
show uall her zhuzhu pics! 1pluspm alr still on my bed!

my bed's not small afterall!
can sqeeze me and fat dear.
hahaha

alrite. gonna try doin some work later.
wth. real bad.
bloddy ass.
must achieve wad's on my agenda!!!!!
=(
i wonder if i can.=(

2007-09-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

sometimes,
i wonder if..
我和你是不是一样世界的人.
但,若是两个一样世界的人,又如何?

我不累,我不困.
只是不喜欢等待的滋味.

letting nature take its course.
gg according to e flow.
.best.
i felt e sparks.
thanks for tat.
smth long-lost.

i wanna change my blog song!
but im jus too hell lazy to do so.

*bloody hell*
i hate sch i swear!!!
hate it to e core!
.study sucks big time.
set me free!!

.itsnowornever.

2007-09-24T17:24:00.000+08:00

phew.
HAD A DAMN FUN weekend.
well starting from thurs all e way till ytd.

thurs.
chiong to town rite aft paper.
went home to shower and change first.
den met hon,yj and gay.
went to find jer at work.
disturbed her and we went off to wait for her to end work.
jo came and played while waitin.
jo and gay damn funni pls.
run ard and whack each other.
gay and me each bot a pair of red skinnys jeans.
hahha. i like it.
ohh!! we went to tis so called blue blue place.
to drink.
played zhong ji mi ma.
fuckin fun.
we were like kinda high.
laughed laughed laughed.
nth else on my mind.
nth flashes thru in my mind.
not abit of sadness.
not abit of tearing scene.
went over to jer's hse to stay.
fought wit jo.
damn violent sia she.
hugged by jo and jer to slp.
hahah but i kept laughin.
i kept Toe-ing.
HAHAH=))
went room to disturb gay too!
hahah i jus refused to let them slp.
*heehee*

fri.
left jer's place.
she went work*poor dumb ting*
e rest went home to slp.
terrible.slept for only 2 hrs?
went tuition.
stonning all e way pls!
i dun like it.
when mrs chew said smth abt *TOOT*
i dun like! i dun like ppl to discriminate.
so wad if they're like tat?
so wad if they behave tis way?
so wad if they dress tis way?
u think these ppls want it?
spare a thought come on'.
homed. and changed.
went to meet gay and hon at plaza.
bus-ed down to queen's way.
met jer there.
walked and shop ard.
hon bot another pair of skinny jeans.
gay bot a pair of shoes.
and ME!! a new bag!=))
jer was like walkin like a zombie.
HAHAH.
jo came down to meet us aft tat.
hahah had dinner at hawker.
hawker food hell bloddy nice!
ohh! had sugar cane juice wit lemon!
nice pls!
each had 2 servings of it! too hard to resist.
joked.laughed.LEH-ed.
so many ppl looked at us.
tis is always de case.
we dun mind,
we dun care,
so long as we had our share.
ohh!
i cant stand e way gay laugh!!!
it bloddy hell made me cant stop laughin as well!
jer, worst.
laugh like cryiiin!!!!
funny shit.
was realli laughin till stomach pain.
cannot make it. cramp tat type pls!
went bb to meet rica rach rebecca and co.
ate,chatted at mac.
2nd round wit hon at bp mac.
sinful nite.
i ate hell damn loadssss.
talked alot wit hon.
alot.alot.
walked her home den went home.
tired. but cant realli slp.

sat.
went swimmin wit hon.
cool shit.
sun was great!
tanning was rather a success.
=))
went to dine at westmall.
we were hungry like an jackass!
met gay aft tat.'
trained down to marina.
walked ard to look for present.
slacked and all.
jer came aft her work.
followed by kuku jo.
played and all.
as usual, laughed and played.
similarly,we ignore how and wad ppl see us as.
we jus laughed. AS LOUDLY. who cares?
went home.showered. tired.
jo called. and chatted wit her.
get to know her more i would say.
she's nice.really.
den kuku jer called in.
funni shit. tellin me tat she cant slp.
hahha conferenced.
all e way till morning pls!
slept awhile.

sun
den woke up for SENTOSA!!!
well.. i guess below tells wad's gg on.
hahah. more pics and videos comin up.
wit jer. wait for tat zhuzhu to upload.
went vivo to play aft sentosa.
fun like mad.
piggyback jer in e sea was funni!
i like it when she's damn scare.
HAHAH funni pok!
went vivo to play aft sentosa
FUNNNNNNNN!!!!!
esp at e playground and toy'R'us.
laughed till cannot make it!
me, jer and jo went gay's hse aft tat.
slacked awile den went home.
bathed and ate my cup noodles.
.yummy.
maggies' my life!
talked on phone wit jer and gay for awhile.
meanwhile textin jo.
hahah she sore eyes! poor thing! take care!
=))

mon
slept till ard 4 pm pls!
sorry gay! i dun mean to pangseh u for lunch de.
jus too tired cant get up.
nite. went to pick jer at bus stop.
went cartel. had cheesecakes.
hon came too=))
waited for gay to knock off.
went 163 to eat.
same. laughed. laughed.
we walked hon home.
den gay and jer stayed over at my place.
took turns to shower
den talked,disturbed each other den slp.
hmmm... it was a nice slp for me i would say.
was slpin on jer's strong left arm.
air-con was damn cold.
but thanks to her "hot" feets.
her body has higher temperature i guess!
.wamth.
and we both kept playin!
HAHAH.
jer's fuckin strong.
yes. take note pls. im usin e word fuckin,..strong.
even i cant win her pls!
esp when she grabbed my arms,..
there's jus nth i can do to fight her back.
ohh! she can grab and slam me from behind pls!
fuckin strong!
but gentle nice hugger huh idiot.
hahah=)) ohh yaa! she got a weird smell!
hahah its like sweet scents,
but not. dunno how to describe.
but yeah. i was stained wit her smell.
HAHAHA

tues.
went down for lunch tgt.
send jer to bus stop to work.
gay cabbed home.
and i went back to slp.
tired.
nite,went bus stop to fetch jer and station to meet gay tgt.
went park to slack and play.
mooncake festival.
as usual.=)
went 163 to eat.
hungry LEH.
chased and played on our way there.
=))
chatted and stuff.
gay cabbed home aft tat.
pangseh us sia.
but yeah her eyes not okay LEH.
so yap. let her go home slp better.
jervis stayed over at my place,again=))
conferenced wit gay and kuku jo b4 we slp.
rained in e mornin!
so cold pls.
walked her to bus stop.
we were like rather drenched.
homed. showered and here i am!!!

been damn happening.
but i like.

me and gay=))

jervis and me=))

jervis,me and gay=)

jer,me,jo,gay=)

hon and me=)))

jer,mel,hon,jo,gay,me=))

ok. tis pic. its jer k! not me.
well both of us think tat tis pic made us look alike.
even my dumbdumb sis tot it was me!=))

*u make me wanna
*u make me feel weird.

Hope i'll achieve wad's onmy agenda for today!
study.study.study.

2007-09-18T02:16:00.000+08:00

u* let me understand e word crush.
a long-lost feel of mine.
ever since tat awful period came crashin on me,
i forgot how to love.
now,i fall.
hopefully not in love.
its plainly, simply,beautifully,
a crush.

yes. tell me that.
yes. tell me so.
but y? i felt as though like,
i spend half my time waitin for ur text.
*while it's minutes?*
my eyes so glued to u*?
yet,im dumb in a way.
when i see or hear u,
i dunno how to love u.
or, perhaps,
im jus too afraid to show.

i hate studyin.
i hate it alot alot.plenty plenty.
some random pics here..

i jus cut hair a few days ago.
kinda love my fringe nw.
but im so worried!
cos everytime i love my fringe,
mr CHUA bo tek will love it more...
> pls have it cut by next week.

freak. no no pls..

2007-09-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
anyone knows if uniform grp records,merits,eagles awards
can be included to apply for pe tcher??
anyone who knows,PLS TAG!
thanks.
*i doubt anyone knows*
well... ewww..

sucks.
LET ME SCORE!

2007-09-05T13:58:00.000+08:00

i damn fuckin hell cant study in e day!
.fuck.
i'll get so damn distracted.
here,there,everywhere!

tryin to build my momentum up.

prelims in few days time.
a few chaps of phy was wad i've done,only.
like fuck pls.

woke up at 11am jus nw.
pls. its considered early for me alr k.
did abit of maths.
so hard to sit still!!!!
read thru e guide> feels like it's been long.
but, screwed pls.
i look at e clock,only passed 15mins.
I CANT SIT STILL!!!

i only can study when my mood kicks in.
but NO. its NOT up to me.come'on.
helphelphelp.

oh ya i think maths revision package seriously shld provide us wit ans.
and not go COE to look for it.
damn so fuckin many ppl starin at e small confusin numbers on ONE chart?
insane.
no wonder got ppl steal e ans.
brainless.

oh yeah,i wun be bloggin THAT frequent anymore.
busy LAAA.

im feelin tired always! HOW??????
sucks.

somehow i feel like my brain's not functioning,tat well.
heh. dumbie shit.

jus wanna go into hidding.
dislike tis shitty shit studies.
wtv.

ohh!one thing, dun copy me.
i dun like copycats.
who likes rite?
yeah,think abt it.

e most dumb shit ting on earth.
i lost my eraser for dayS.
(its wit honey)
and i totally didnt realise until she tell me?
hell. tis proved tat i realli hadnt been studyin,no?

2007-09-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

damn. did only 2 chaps of studyin today.
not productive. at all.
.shitty shit.

2007-09-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

went vivo ytd.
took hell loads of funni shit pics.
got one totally OMG pic wit gay bud.
JAYVON TAN! all ur fault la. e dumb dress.
rembr?,. god damn.

alrite e pics will post them once they're ready.

drank and all.
cabbed home aft tat.
so late pls. i slept at ard 2?or 2 plus?
AND I BLOODY WOKE UP AT ard 530 pls!
bathed and packed my bag.
see. i only slept for like 3 plus hrs?
was feelin real uncomfortable when i woke up.
e alcohol still in my stomach and flowin in my body?
in my mind i was like thinking
>shit. i've got to be under e sun and be so busy later. HOW?

yes. i had to help out at tis street soccer match thingy.
its a carnival. and i had to walk ard and stuff. and get so busy.

wad e hell. kk. tis was wad i did.
i went to e toilet and dig and cough and did wtv i could.
to make myself puke.
and yesh. i felt so much better aft tat.

cabbed to ulu pandan cc.
did my duties.
thanks to sebas and bingchong.
heh. went for lunch tgt aft tat.
GIMM MOH mkt got hell nice food!
faints.
I LOVE e sugar cane juice! wit lemon.
from This particular stall. SO NICE
instead of a slice of lemon,
they put e lemon JUICEinto e sugar cane juice.
Oh MY FUCK.
HELL NICE>
ask for my hand usin his sugarcane juice+lemon
let me tell u. its gonna work!
HAHAH JUS KIDDIN.

showered and went to bed.
drop dead.
all e way till 730pm?
woke up,chatted wit gay budbud
had dinner and HERE=)

gg for my satays or rojak + lime juice later.
or rather,now. aft i've changed.

OHH! i had oreo cheesecake and banana&peach icecream waffle!
wit maple surulp! as sweet as my honey who's at e dinnin table wit me.
HAHAHA=)

happiness is simple.
*if u made them so*

complication is not needed.
*they're too cumbersome*

ohh yaaaaaaa!
i saw vio's sec fren while i was on my way home.
i duuno his name.

him> ehh?! HI=)
me>?... ohh.. hi.
*pause*
him> vio leh?
me> HUH.er.. i dunno?... (in my heart thinkin wth? how would i know?)
him> holiday nw horh?
me> yeah.
him> A's comin rite?
me> yap.

OHH i saw hell many bungs and andros today!
god. all damn MAN.
soccer is easy to them.

street soccer is fun.
feverish urge to join.

2007-08-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

wohoo im macing nw..=)
wit gay budbud..
honey joining later.YAY YAY YAY=)

met my sis here.....
diaos.
so nice of her to buy me ice cream. hehe.

had gp paper today.
it almost killed me
wad i studied didnt come out pls.
studied mass media, crimes and punishments, education and some others.
wad e hell.
e above 3 topics which i banged hard in didnt come out?
oh god. call me sway or unlucky.
compre... cant score too.
wrote RUBBISH for AQ.
answers too.. all craps?
i dun even realli understood wad e hell e passageS were abt.
dumb ting.
wtv. its over.
shitty shit. i used to only pass gp and econs?
nw? fuck. prelims for gp is so screwed.

k...........off i go..........

if u dun like ppl to do smth..
dun do tat smth to ppl..

im done wit all e dumb story telling.
a fallacy indeed.

2007-08-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

FRI nite.
beloved ones,yes,im macing nw,again.
HAHAHA

came plaza aft mrs chew's tuition.
met honey and had MOS burger for dinner.
hehh. ate all e way till 9pm?
came macs aft tat.

i dunno how to explain.
things are weird when it's weird or u're weird.

hahah. ohh! thanks gay budbud's lappy. thus e bloggin.

.IM TIRED.

had an inspiring talk today during assembly.
all e negative thoughts/feelings and all tat Doc william mentioned?
its all running thru my mind.
hit on e bull's eye,again and again. one aft another.
its jus a damn sucky feeling.
when u know wad u had to do,
but u cant and u dunno how to.
its jus tough.
its jus.......

ergh... i dunno.
i jus wanna get out of sch ASAP.
and.i wan a new way of life.
i wan. i nid. i HAD to.
im jus so sick.so tired.so beat of wad im havin nw.
seriously.
everydAY IS jus another day.

=itsnowornever=

e strawberry smell still lingers?
nope... (i guess)
.hopefully.

OHH!!! gay budbud ask me to wake her up.
went to washroom to call her.
STUPID PIGGY JAYVON!!!!
call u wake up end up still nvr go sch!
stupid gay.
whack your gayish butt den u know!!

bloody hell damn screwed up.
my studies suck big time.

i jus wanna do smth of my passion. can i?
not at tis moment, i guess.

gone. its gone.
gone.gone.gone.

2007-08-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

took phy lecture test jus nw.
though its only 30mcqs?
but its enough to KILL me.
die flat flat.

wed,maths lecture test.
gonna be another sooooooooo
gonecase.

i can tell tat e pet shop bung is like realli happi wit her work.
like its smth of her passion i guess?
since she's also trained in these stuff.
she made me realised smth..
u dun haf to sit in e high rank office.
u dun haf to get high pay.
u dun haf to dress formally and attend major events or meetins.
u dun haf e need to haf clerks or assistants serving u or at e back of ur call.

so long as u're happy and enjoyin
so long as u're doin smth of ur wish
so long as u're doin smth of ur liking
so long its smth.. out of ur passion i would say..
isnt tat satisfyin enough?

shit sia. i kept callin or naming her as pet shop bung.
scarlly she's MARRIED or even wit kids?
hahah oh dear. tat's gonna be damn hilarious.

i jus wanna do smth i like.
as i've mentioned b4,life's short.
if u dun do it nw,when u wanna do it?
when u're all old and haggard?
when u're all weak sick and fragile?
no no no....

k im like bloggin cos e nite is still young.
off i go... tonnes of hw left undone.
BUT, who cares?
heh.
.slack.slack.slack.

2007-08-18T03:19:00.000+08:00

k im like macing nw..
like,again.
haahaa.
here wit honey and gay..

yeah as expected,
i did only BIT of stuff.
hahhaha ohh i....
FINALLY got friendster.
add me kk...
my emai's lingli_16@hotmail.com
add me kk=)
heh. k i know tis like is abit retarded of me.

jus uploaded some pics to honey's lappy.
here here...some random pics.

gd bye to u....

2007-08-16T16:53:00.000+08:00

k tis post supposed to be fri.
but yeah.my com's loco.
didnt attend sch for 2 days.
stayed home and i slept for hell long.
i was too tired to get up.
didnt slp well for dayssss.

went plaza on wed aft sch.
dined at tis new shop called Streets.
wit honey, er yi, aunty yang and gay.
fuckin full.
e food.... hmmm ok ok only.
and ohh i disturbed their tis pretty waitress there.
shit.
funny shit.

ohh we laughed damn insanely madly outside norman.
jokes and craps abt electrical shocks.
i laughed till i stomachache man.

went starbucks to slack aft tat.
according to gay,
we were there from 6pm to 12midnite.

scribbled some maths.
dun believe? HERE.

it was my lucky day!
i met so many cute ppl pls.
i love e way they speak.
so nice.so cute.

one of them is a bung(?) workin at e pet shop.
she's hell cute.as in e way she speaks and all.
ohh at first i dao-ed her.
but yeah cant resist her cute-ness.
and i talked to her.
pretended to borrow lighter from her.
hahah den chit chatted a little.
she knows dogs' training stuff k.
so so cool.
but yeah she's rather a short lao bung.
not realli lao. but relatively so.
and and!!!
when she's gg home aft she close shop,
she turned back to look at us b4 she walk off k!
and i waved BYE BYE to her.
and she waved and smiled.
hahah damn ke ai.

k apparently i was tryin to act cute.
and,obviously i failed.
hahah no la,i was actually tryin to kiss honey. *hehee

honey's stupid face.

aunty yang and honey=)

honey and me!=) i love tis pic!

here.. show u some hot stuff.
L word.

find me e strength.
find me e will.
find me e back e spirit.
find me back e motivation.

.mind over body.

loads of catchin up to be done.
fuck it. my studies sucks BIG TIME.

at times i really wanna give up.
but i know i cant. i cant afford to.
but im really disheartened.
really tired. almost of all.

thanks smellyass for tryin so hard to 'enlighten' me.
=)

gay came my hse to slack last nite.
send her down for cab at ard 230am?
we shared alot alot.
thanks gay.
may e gay-ness continue till we're old.
as in,yes,hope we 4 woulnt driff apart.
i was really really happy these days.
*sounds like im dyin?*

hahahh
i nid smth badly.
like,smth's missin,.
but i jus dunno wad.
k gonna go do my gp tuition hw nw.
later got to go tuition,.like again.

so fast one week alr.
sucks,no?

so wad if u earn alot?
so wad if u got e best cert?
when u die, u dun bring them wit u.
its all abt e happiness which u had,
which u've kept.

its jus a game we're talking abt,no?

my perception of life has really changed.
really really changed.

2007-08-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

tell me how how how.
im feelin fuckin lost nw.
i jus blog hopped and im damn fuckin hell scare lost wadever u name it.

im not doin wad other jcs peeps are doin.
im not im not im not.

nervous breakdown.

i feel so much wanting to cry nw.
i feel so....... tight?
i dunno wad im experiencin nw.
so lost so confuse so on and on.

i dunno.i dunno.
.I DUNNO.

its been long since i quarrelled wit my mum.
and.
it happened today.
and below's wad i'll do last time.
hide in my room and never step out
or always,
grab my bike and go out of e hse.

i did none of e above.

im feelin fucking weird.
damn frustrated.
damn pressured.
damn pekcek.

im struggling.
yes. i am.

i wanna find a shell.
i wanna hide in it.
i dun wanna face anyone.
i dun wanna see faces of ppl.

im afraid.im really.

im to extreme.
whereby, i hate sch.
there's nth i look forward to except for pe lesson.
i wanna escape.
but where?
WHERE?

i hate tis feelin.
which i once had.
and i know its back.
i'll get fuckin lost.

i dunno e way.
i dunno myself.
i dunno wad heck im doing.
i dunno y im all down.

i need a new way of life. terribly.

no one can help.
neither myself.

tis is not a fallacy. i hate it.
seriously.

believe me anot,
i've seen everthing else as not impt.
happiness is e most impt.
u jus think abt it.
u've got abt 70 years on earth.
and u've alr used up almost 20 years.
leaving 50 year only.
70 years..... short.
spend ur time slothin?
earnin money?
providing e best for ur family?
giving ur utmost to anyone elses except for urself?

i dun wan.
call me selfish or wad.
i wan to be happy and i dun care how and wad u think.

is havin a cert realli impt?
there's so much more.so much.
jus look.
e graduates are all e one holdin a stupid cert and workin for ppl.
and its those non grads who are e bosses.
no? no?
even if its a steppin stone to career.
so?
SO??
so wad if u've found a high pay job?
lead a stable life and etc.
SO?
life is so much more den tat.

i wanna do things tat i cant do when im old.
i dun wann sloth my lungs/heart/wadever out,
den when im all old and fragile,
regret things which i have not done.

u may not agree wit me.
i know im stubborn.
i sucks to begin wit wad.
slap myself.
i deserve more den a slap anw.

if u're lost urself,
try to find ur way too.
find wad u wan too.

its all jus a game we're talkin abt no?

ridiculous.

im insane. i've no sanity kind of thinking.
SO? SO? SO?

2007-08-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

and yes. i hit town on fri.
went tuition from 7 to 9pm.
met honey and gay bud bud at jurong
meet ah jia aka aunty yang too.
trained to town.
walked to cine.
bot movie tickets.
1.10am show.
jay's movie. secret.

nice in a way,not nice in a way.

ohh i wore formal.
but not e usual kind which bungs wore.
more andro style.

slacked at rocky master.
alot high high happenings!

k.. i did dumb things wit gay.

its a gay nite...

actin emo and funni.
*note!: we didnt kiss LA.

gay bud bud is damn strong! she can piggy back me!!
and she can piggy back aunty yang!

e 3 gays.

show u. we really DAMN gay.
SISSY gaysss

k still got somemore.other day den post.

k gonna watch anita mui's show nw.
she's masculine. yet not.
i love tat show.
watched it hell many times.
see youuuu.

gay bud bud u sick alr.
MUST take care.
=)

2007-08-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

wed. left home ard 9plus pm?
went cartel to meet gay bud.
waited for gay bud bud to change handsome handsome.,
den honey's mum send us to kbox!=)

met up wit ah jia yj and e rest.
drank berber coke and takira pop
wanted to go clarke quay aft tat de.
BUT!
SOMEONE got damn wasted.
damn drunk.
fuuni.
*to protect e interest of SOMEONE,
name shall not be mentioned here.
but of cos its not me la. hahah.

went aik's place aft tat.
played ps.
went home ard 5 plus or 6am??
send honey home
den rained fuckin heavily.
cabbed home wit ah jia and gay.
dropped ah jia den mi and gay last.

slept at close to 7am pls! aft textin all.

thus.(happy national day!)
woke up at ard 12.
showered den went tuition.
sian.
met honey ah jia and 3 other guys for dinner.
waited for gay to end work.
slacked tgt aft tat.
wanted to have thirtythree.
but yes,i did restrict myself k.
had choc milk instead.

slacked den went home.
thanks gay for sendin me home.
heng she cabbed homw aft tat.
tat stupid tired pig.
talkin to gay nw,
heart to heart? sort of.
thank stupid Miss Clarisa aka my GAY BUDD.
we hit off somehow=)
rite gay budd budd?!!

movies tmr.dunno mummy tan allow anot.
plus im damn broke.
and gay say wanna treat me? NO. i bu hao yi shi.
hiaxz.. k gonna slp REAL SOON.
aft chattin wit gay budd budd.
if gg gonna wear formal.=) nice.

happy national day!
i love it. cos its a long break.

someday i feel broke inside but i wont admit.

2007-08-08T11:32:00.000+08:00

jus so many tings and i dunno where to start.

fri went macs.
supposed to STUDY.
ended up playin and all.
was wit my pretty honey, chiobu yj,ah jia and my gay clar.
wohoo. yes yes. Miss CLARISA TAN is my new gay.
hahahha!!!
went home showered and slept ar ard 5am?

woke up hell early e next day.
met up wit honey and gay.
headed to bugis.
i went there to praypray.
hoping guanyingma will save me.

but yeah,i feel so much stable down in my heart aft prayin.
its all in e mind.
mind over body.

went to jp aft tat.
played bball arcade.
fuckin skills gone.

went ahma hse aft tat.
baby shawn is like so small?
yeah la yeah la.
new born. dumb me.
wohoo. there's bung there too.
we went in and 3 OMG faces.

headed to town aft tat.
slacked ard at cine den fareast.
bored.
cabbed to clake quay.
wtf. HIGH!!!!!!!!!
yes.aft some couple of drink.
which we drank it like shots.
thirtythree taste quite sucky.
but i like its kick.
HIGH HIGH HIGH!

omg. started loads of stupid stuff.
like disturbing other bungs?
like the s-h-o-r-t f-a-r-t thing?
shit. feel paiseh.
even went to disturb tis bung's gf
while me and gay on e way go buy second round.

sat by e riverside.
and gay cant even walk properly!
hahha walk not straight!!
tat's damn hilarious.

got me and honey's pic but dun wanna post cos i looked stone-ed.

and fuck pls.
next time i go be taxi driver.
know from clarke quay to my place its 26.40 bucks.

ohh smth damn idiot and stupid happened!
i tot i lost my hp!
heng sia.

mon didnt attend sch.
hangover mood sucks big time.

met gay tyd too.
acmpy her makan dinner.
honey pangseh us.
haha nah kidding.

have u ever though of these?

when u're accidently in love wit someone,
u'll think hard.
tryin hard to figure out wat's tat someone's say and feel.
u'll ponder over it.
to tell or not to tell?
to hint or to be daring direct.

when u've alr got hold of someone?
u'll start thinkin too.
will we last?
will u still love me tommorrow?
will my affections for u holds?
will our chemistry still sparks?
will i not ever hold ur hand again?
will i be able to love u like how i did ytd?

tat's love?
y issit always so?
y issit tat ppl have fears?
y issit tat ppl wanna doubt?
y issit tat ppl choose to leave e r/s when they chose to start in e first place?
y issit tat ppl cant be frens any longer aft break ups?

i believe so.
feelings will fade.
destiny will play.
fate will end.
no doubt abt it.

is it jus a game?
do u hope to be e one ending e game?
or e one whose game is being ended?

is it jus purely lust?
end it here den.

my books nid my attention.
but im not giving them so.
im a fucker no?

nobody failed me.
i failed myself.

2007-08-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

been tryin to figure out wad's wrong wit me.
e reason behind me not focusing on my studies.
or rather,not being able to focus?

i feel lousy.

it jus seems like,i've forgotten HOW to study.

i wanna be happy.
i wan a new way of life.

argh. i feel tired often and damn easily.
lousy ting. it sucks.

cookie is damn cute=)

stupidly random today.

dun say things based on ur assumptions.
it makes u look like a fool.

2007-07-31T18:05:00.000+08:00

guess wad?
i did tis blog test taken from honey's blog.
and it jus so turned out tat we're both e
SAME type of drinker.
well.. quite interesting.

BUT! definitely true.
tis can be provided by concrete evidence.
for wad happened on my bdae nite.
we said NO. but aft couple of drinks?
wtf. hahah *my lips are sealed*

guess.

its more den wad u think,
less den wad u thought.

onli 5 peeps knows.
no more,no less.

You Are a Champagne Woman

A true mystery, no one can quite figure you out...
That is, until you start drinking. Then you tend to let loose.
You're fun to drink with, but it definitely takes you a few drinks to loosen up.
You prefer to date a man who likes the finer things in life... like a five star dinner with that champagne.

What Kind of Drinking Woman Are You?

i think true.
me and honey kinda same same here.
=)

sat. ANOTHER family function.
dunno shld go anot.
cos i damn bloddy got hell 3 test on mon.
wtf.

ohh im hell lucky.
didnt meet P.
met mr chue kah loong instead.
my fav target to disturb!
he's me and des's da chang jin.
heh.

e sch didnt even ask me wan to retain anot.
jus sit down talk crap.
den see how e sch can help me.
tat's all.

no joke man.
countdown.
90 days.
wtf.
hell's ahead. saw it?

its gonna be now or never.

*warning.
get me nw.
or,its never.

2007-07-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

hello!!!=)
hahah im in macs nw.
yes.bloggin. thanks thanks to honey's lappy.
=)=)
gonna study?(hopefully lah)

tmr is my death day pls.
got to meet P.
omg. im scare.
she's gonna so bombard me wit loads of qns and
and and and leave me wit loads and loads of doubts.
shitty shit. haizxx...=(
no choice.
BUT heck care wad she say. i'll stay firmmmmmmm.

seems like im running slight fever nw.
wtf.
ate panadol but it doesnt seems to be workin!!

tired.
my eyes... are.. errrrrrrrrr....

anw its nice here. havin honey and ahjia or ahming here,
all accompaning me to study.
esp honey. always pei me study.
thanks! I LOVElove u.
hahaha.

shall FOCUS on my notes nw!!!=)

im turning my focus point.
.its now or never.

2007-07-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

HI=)
hahah. thanks all e peeps who did my blog test.
thanks thanks.=)

and ohh,i know there's a quite a handful ppl(be it i know or dunno)
out there
who have been readin my blog..er,jus do test.
i dun mind.thanks=)

ohh! i jus changed my hp today!=)
yay. sony ericson,cybershot.
its quite sudden.
go in see phone suddenly den mummy change for me.
yay! thanks I LOVE MUMMY TAN=)=)
*den i told her i'll get her a bigger present on next yr's mothers' day.
>everyone in e shop laughed.
heh. dumb.

some photos here. yeah yeah.

some treats to u.. pretty ladies..=)

omg lorh.yj is really damn pretty.
haha lau looks like hebe somehow!
hahah mayb cos hebe is one of my "crush"?
heh. jus kiddin.
hebe really got factor. plus hair v nice!=)=)
i wanna go buy S.H.E album!
shld i? shld i?
haizx.

anw.. some updates abt sch life.
as usual,it sucks.
meetin P,again.
tis comin sat.
god bless me.
but sure,they'll persuade me to retain.

anw. i'll listen to ginny=)=)
she inspire me alot.
heh.
eh bitch,if see tis,*must treat me to drink ah*
hahah.
>dun worry,i'll stand firm.
thanks=)=)

tell me nw.
whisper to my ear nw.
enlighten me nw.
lead me e way nw.
are we strangers,no?
im jus followin wad u're doin,
wad u're wantin.
tis is not a blame.
jus tat u're e action.
while im e reaction.
action-reaction.
gonecase.

2007-07-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

WOHOO!!!
been such a long time since i last updated!
so sorry peeps.
hahah been busy.
hahha ohh. more photos comin up..
on e way. so yeah.
will post them all in one shot when ready.
hahah.
here's a little test.
do it k! hahah fun.

Create your own Friend Test here

heheh. no blog? nvm. can do e test still.
thanks! haf fun!

=strawberrysmelllingers=

not tat i no longer dun think abt it.

jus tat its tiring to do so.

not tat i no longer want those dreams.

jus tat its hurtin to see and feel.

2007-07-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

sch starts tmr.
i swear its a big turn off.
such a shitty ting.

fri.
went swimming wit honey aft paper.
cool.
ass ting e stupid sun tann spray.
im havin rashes.
its either tat or my last-time rashes are back.
chilled at mac aft shoppin and havin dinner.
k. i swear we were upset tat time.
cos rica rach rebecca and all said they got grounded.
meaning,not celebratin my bdae tgt.
pourin like hell.
cabbed home aft tat.
to honey's den mine,.

sat.(30th june.Must Read.)
woke up wit my deadly tired eyes.
got ready and went to meet daosapao and dayi.
ate steamboat at Mushroom Hot Pot or smth?
nice.at town's OG.4th level.
had a terrible walk to cine.
took neoprints.
OHH!!!
i saw geraldine see!!!
wit her gal in tis bikini's shop.
she's damn wad pls. egoistic?
kept talkin playin wit her gal and lookin out,
tryin to see if anyone's lookin at her.
eeww.
she looked at me when i looked at her.
so many times. she peeped den looked away.
for once,for twice,for so many times.
told pau and she looked at us tgt.
purposely sticked-out my tongue.
to do e "pukin-look".
YES. I LIKE dean!
but,contradiction in my actions.
didnt wan her to get ego or wad.
she looked quite sucky,.
nth impressive la her.
walked to fareast. bot myself slippers.
but didnt change into it.
my feet got loads of painful blisters!

rach and fren came to meet me aft tat.
walked back to cine.
bitch was hungry. wanted to haf long john.
but its so packed.no seats.
den went over to plazasing for long john.
went to teng's place aft tat.
damn funny in e bus!!!!
wohoo.
i got hell loads of ugly bruises on my arm!!!
all cos of silly bitch's power to pinchin!
i kept askin her to stay over wit me at teng's place.
but she said cant and got to leave at 10pm.
sad shit.

reached teng's place ard 8pm?
went to room to put my stuff.
opened e door>
AND!!!
PLS!OMG!
rica rebb and all were hidin in there!!
i was so hell surprised!
"eh???....eh??..."
kept sayin tat.
wanted to hug them so much pls.
hahah!!
they bluffed me pls!
all came and all stayed over!yay!
we changed and went to plaza for dinner.
met darling to get my present.
thanks!i love tat!.
laughed hell loudly at macs.
and ppl stared,
damn paiseh!
went 7-11 to buy hooches.
headed to park to slack.
dumb bot cant be opened.
went teng's place.
took turns to shower.
den,came my next surprise.
they made rach to make me stay in e room.
im dumb i guess.
was busy laughin and makin evil comments abt those
ppl rach showed me on frienster.
den suddenly e lights went out.
"pak." i tot black out pls!
turned and saw rica,honey and all wit my bdae cake!
omg! so touched.
kids too singin bdae song for me.
ohh..argh...
ahahha they gave me my present aft tat.
HELL LOVED IT.
NEW URBAN MALE's top.
changed into it to let them see.
camwhored and we took funnyshit video!!!
e video is like HAHAHAHA.
all seems like drunk.
while we haven even started drinkin!!

downloaded spider lilies from you-tube.
okay,if u dunno wad's tat,
its a r21 movie by yang cheng lin.
not tat hot.
agree wit rach,.the L word is much hotter.
we drank and played death match!!!
seriously.omg.
gulped down hooch and REDWINE.
mine u. it's kick is strong like fuck!.
played "dirty" tings durin death match,
okay la,quite fun.
oh if u're thinkin wad's e tingy..
>its more den wad u think,
less den wad u tot.
hahahahahhah

got damn high aft tat.
began to feel e kick.
cant really remembred wad i did,or said.
k,more like i dun wanna say it here la.
hahahah.
all is rica told me wad i did one.
heh. argh. damn PAISEHhhhhhhh.
sorry ar,kept dun lettin u slp.
ohh thanks too. for constantly applyin calamine lotion for me.
=))

*whatever happened shall be tightly sealed.*

hangover e followin day.
even today. went gp tuition wit a stonestone feel.

tmr got sch!
.sick.

oh! there's a pau on my head!
hurts.i fell down from bed can.

.HAPPY.thanks all.
.loves.

thanks to those who texted to wish me too!
e list's too long to list.
hahah THANKS ALL.
(with loads love)
seriously and truly.

feel like singin tis when im dead drunk.>

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

.tonite.there's only u and me.
.in my dreams even,u exist.

sch tmr.
gettin back results?

.goodgame.

photos shall be posted soon.
if there is.

2007-06-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

oh god.
i tried to sit down and focus to study.
for tmr's phy p1 and p2.
but like,cant?

eeww.. im totally in holiday mood!!

swimming soon!!!!
in few hrs time!
oh god...

bad.bad.bad.

focus.focus.focus.

abit tired.but,cant slp.
exam is........ argh.*puke puke*

you* called.
i didnt pick up.
for no reason.
its always bad timing.
no fate i guess.

=strawberrysmelllingers=
=) =) =)

im one who will do extra miles for fren.
so yeah,dun read too much into it.
im not weird or wad.
is u're too sensitive.
get it,no?

2007-06-26T12:59:00.000+08:00

phew.damn shagged.
tired.
almost done wit mids.
chem sucks.
cant finish e paper.
almost e whole class too.
heh.

gonna bear wit it and fri.i'll be done.
wit mids.
aft playin on my bdae den stop.
study.A's is like SO near?

eeww.

tis is for my honey>
hey u gal pls cheer up alrite?
let nature take it course.
seriously.
dun hurry into things.
haf patience my dear!
=)
anyting,im here!
*waving hard* can see me??
hahah
drinking seesion soon yeah?
heart-to-heart talk,i love.
love e alcohol.
but,
love u guys more. hahah
take care! and.see u on fri,RITE aft my paper!
swimmin and tannin!!!=)

alrite.gonna go slp soon.
so deprived from slp!
oh goshhhh...
i dun wanna look haggard!

gonna study tmr wit smellyass in sch i think.
hey dumbiie jeannette! we study k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u smellyass. we always end up playin and laughin.
tat time sit far apart>tables away still can play?
i swear we were dumb!heh.
hahah sit so far apart still play and throw paper msges?
OH GOD.
S-T-U-D-Y!!!!!!

swimmin,sentosa and drinkin soon!
i hope.i hope.i hope.
happy. heh.

=strawberrysmelllingers=
how nice if u're still here.
with me.

2007-06-22T13:24:00.000+08:00

tell me HOW???!

maths p1,sure die.
phy p3,sure DIE.
single digit for both?
screwed up totally.
econs?my case study sucks.
essay?anyhow wacked.

HOW HOW HOW?

phy p3,
i saw sooooo many ppl strugglin and slpin.
me? merely wrote down craps.

howwwwwww
see aunti tan again???
NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

but i dunno y..
i've got strong desires to sit for a's.
i want it.
eh? last time wasnt like so.
last time was u wan,den let me sit for a's.
u dun wan? i'll find other routes.
BUT NOW. IT's DIFFERENT.
i wanna sit for A's and go uni if i can!
hehee. stay hostel?? i want!
will be hell fun i think.
esp if u're wit crazy peeps.

off i go...
study.study.study.

2007-06-11T03:27:00.000+08:00

sun nite>3.31am>early mon

some lame stuff here..comment on them ba..

You Are 2: The Helper

You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.
You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.

Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.
You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.

At Your Best: You are deeply giving, altruistic, and humble. You devote your life to others while caring for yourself too.

At Your Worst: You are manipulative and enjoy making other people guilty.

Your Fixation: Rejection

Your Primary Fear: Being unworthy of love

Your Primary Desire: To be loved unconditionally

Other Number 2's: Mother Teresa, John Travolta, Princess Diana, Dr. Phil, and Mr. Rogers.

What Number Are You?

tis? true? mood swing>true...

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on
A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows
You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner
You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult
It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply
Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family
Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.
Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.
Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.
Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.
Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Best color to attract mate: Aqua

Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

now... tell me.. tis below one is insanely crap.

You Are the Middle Finger

A bit fragile and dependent on your friends, you're not nearly as hostile as you seem.
You are balanced, easy to get along with, and quite serious.
However, you can get angry and fed up with those around you. And you aren't afraid to show it!

You get along well with: The Index Finger

Stay away from: The Pinky

What Finger Are You?

=strawberrysmelllingers=

off........

2007-06-10T02:41:00.000+08:00

sat nite>2.45am>early sun.

went plaza wit honey and 3 other KIDS.
kelly is damn funni.
heh.
went honey's hse.
wanted to stayover.
ended up didnt.cabbed home wit sis and cookie.

im not worried for my mids.
cos..................
sure flunk.
im damn screwed up la.
wtv.mids.....a's hope im not tis screwed.
which i think most likely still will be.

suddenly tot of smth.
dont u think friendships are like kinda fragile??
weak bastard it is.
i guess its totally smth ought to be like,..
er.. yeah,takes both hand to clap.
but sometimes,it jus sucks.
when u're like tryin damn hard to salvage e frenship?
to gap up e gap?
to find rots and nuts to talk when u haf nth to say to each other?
to msg and whine at them abt ur bad day?
to do little stuff to cheer them on or up?
i guess...
all these are efforts still.in tryin to gap up e frenship.
but well,.its jus smth,.rather sad.
er no no,change.smth DAMN sad.
if u're tryin damn hard
but e other party overlooks all tat.
or even,not tryin.worse still,not at all.
sucky isnt it?
i dunno man.
i've ever been tat tryin v hard fool mentioned above.
and when i got not even a pea in return,
i gave up tryin.
no point rite?
it takes both hands to clap.
but still,i hope for a miracle to happen.
i wish,i hope,i pray.
for my bestie's return.
i used to say>
u knew it all,
u knew me best.
i may not be a gd fren,
but,im not a bad fren.
i may not be understandin,
but,im always ready to gif in.
i may be petty,
but,im ever ready to say sorry to u.
i may be evil and mean,
but,i swear i was e nicest to u.
i may be short tempered,
but,i nvr snap at u.
im silly.
zhong gan qing creature.
f-r-i-e-n-d-s-h-i-p.
easy to spell,yet not.
heh. believe me anot,
im now so insanely jealous over those long lastin frenship of others.
=) =)
miracle pls happen! ONe of my greatest wish.
i'll be repeatin postin tis in every post.
till it's or im gone/over.

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线
一点一点没知觉

泛红双眼不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸特效药也无解
才发现我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
oh过敏源是对你的思念

我想我才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变是想念没断线

我想我才发现
感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
oh过敏源是为你流的泪
我想我才了解
就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变是眼泪弄湿脸

季节一直变
但我的心没有变

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸没知觉

wad a fuckin nice song.
>i like tis part.heh.
你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线
一点一点没知觉

就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变是眼泪弄湿脸

季节一直变
但我的心没有变

=)=)
haven studied much.
.im dead.

nice. =)=)

2007-06-09T01:43:00.000+08:00

fri nite.>1.47am nw>early sat.
kiss my foot.
planned to study at 11pm jus nw.
stuck here>where im at NOW.
fuckin pissed.
wit?
myself.
i sucks.i cant study know.

thurs.went bugis.
shop shop shop.wohoo=)
honey called.
but late at nite plus tired so didnt go out.
she came my hse instead.
and honey stayed over=)=)
chat and laugh till ard 4am?
heh.den went tuition next day wit
my brain which is like,dead..
duh..de...its dead.always.

bugis got HOT babes.
one,extreme hot.
heehee.goblok my baby knows!!!
hey u goblok dun pierce so many holes ah!

Jus pierce tongue.hot.

hot hunk.rite here.>here u go.,.

well..guess i wun be bloggin till aft my mids.
mids' on 18th! so fast. fuck it.
im dead.

*GOOD-GAME*

2007-06-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

life's gonna be hell.
from nw on.
studyin sucks.i swear.
muggin?i dunno how.
i'll get so distracted or sleepy..
aft Alittle of studyin...

howhowhow???!!!
any pros!?? help!help!!!

thurs....heeehee.
SHOPPING! and movie mayb?
i wanna go out!!!

anw.. cookie is so cute.
heh. like a baby.

im gonna change my bloggin style.
from NOW on..=)
heheh.

alrite.. off i go.
tv den book(hopefully larh huh)

some neos taken wit smellyass..

2007-05-28T02:15:00.000+08:00

went to vist alex jus nw.
omg.pls take care!
thanks to smelly ass's mum for sendin us there.
thanks aunti!=) heh.though she wouldnt be readin tis.
hey smelly ass! thanks loads!=)
and yeah,decided not to clean my room.
dun mind messy room den jus come loh. heh.

tired.i feel tired super easily.
i dunno y man.
damn guilty.
like 2 days didnt study alr.
fri studied wit smelly ass till nw.
omg. bad.bad.bad.
heng man.
im meetin smelly ass tmr.
lunchin tgt den study.
heh.=)
STUDY!!!!!=)
i wanna be a NERD!hahah.=)

i love my blog song!heh.
it's stirin every single bit of my emotions.

anw,jus realised tat i've not seen honey for quite long.
since mothers' day till nw?
honey,I MISS U!!=)
honey's leavin for holiday soon.
ohh no... =(

was listenin to zhen shi by zhanghuimei.
darn super nice pls!!
>
你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真
太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

can jus cry man.
argh,..dan shi wo ku bu chu.

tmr campus superstar2 @8pm!
channel u! watch watch watch!!!=)
and! pls watch 8pm,thurs channel u!
got geraldine!!!!!hehehe=)

my blog song is rite!
>I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you

not that i wanna talk bout u all e time.
not that i wanna think of u all e time.
not that i wanna dream of u all e time.
i've tried not to.
apparently,i cant.
i jus,cant.
dreamt of u last nite again.
woke up wit tears in my eyes.
i dreamt tat we're in train.
as usual,e sad darn thing happenin.
but somehow aft tat,..
e dream was blur,unclear.
but,believe me anot,
i could actually feel ur touch.
i could actually feel ur hug.
i could actually feel ur heartache.
i could actually feel ur tears.
i could hear ur sobbing.
they're real.so real.so real.
i dreamt tat i hugged u darn tightly aft tat.
and,u were doin so too.
all e unspoken words of honesty.
one aft e other,came by.
all e unrevealed things.
all e heartfelt words.
all e darkest secrets.
all e words that were left unsaid.
i held onto u damn tightly.
lookin into ur swollen red teary eyes.
while u looked into mine.
e feelin,so strong.
e chemistry,so unbreakable.
and we hugged once again.
sobbin and sobbin...
tellin each other how much we actually cared.
tellin each other how much pain we're in.
tellin each other how much we miss e past.
tellin each other how much we miss each other.
tellin each other how much we miss stayin by each other's side.
tellin each other how much we miss e smell of e other party.
tellin each other how much we needed each other.
i wish for e dream to come true.
i wish.i hope.i pray.
Slap me.
SLAP me hard,NOW.
Wake me up. Tell me so tat it's a dream.
Get my ass movin and move on!!!
if i can,i would haf done so.
i think of u in e day,
i dream of u in e nite.
i miss u in e midst of fun.
how to? how to? how to get my ass movin???